(Verb) the feeling of trepidation or anxiety preceding either attending a scan appointment and/or follow up result consultation
Sometimes it's also accompanied by 'a feeling of vagueness', 'mind wandering' into 'what if's and maybe's', 'sweaty palms' , 'sleeplessness' and 'jelly belly visiting toilet multiple times itus'
Sound familiar? I've got it, well and truly.
If you've ever had to go for tests and then waited for the results, you'll know exactly what what I'm talking about. And if you've battled cancer, it's all too familiar. Every consultation, every blood test, every x-ray or scan, you're hoping for the best news, but secretly preparing for bad.
I get my results on Wednesday, one year down on the drug trial, (2 more to go) one year all clear, I'm sure (I hope)
But until then, if you should see me walking briskly in the direction of the lavatory, please excuse my rudeness.......and get out of the way!