I went the whole night without sleep! What the hell is going on??? I've never, ever done that before! I'm someone who needs at least 8 hours sleep. 10 would be perfect...... I will settle for 9. I mentally keep a sleep diary and when I lose some I need to make it up at weekends. I love my bed! One job didn't finish until 2am. We'd finish work, grab something to eat and then go rolling skating or 'star watching' (read what you will into that one!) up on 'Plymouth Hoe'. I remember once going skinny dipping.. but I think a bit of alcohol might have been consumed. Bed might not beckon until 6am, but it always featured. But this was pre-responsibilities.
Even when I had the kids, I always managed to snatch a couple of hours. Sleep is a currency and I need to make sure I always have enough savings in the bank for emergencies. If I go over and use up all my savings and go into the overdraft, I work hard to get myself back into the black (I'm sorry if I've gone overboard on the picture portraying, I'm just enjoying the word playing, humour me? I'VE NOT SLEPT!!!)
Last night wasn't pure hell, just odd. I went to bed but got up because of an itchy foot and then just didn't go back. The early hours passed with me eating too much, drinking tea and watching Britains Got Talent and Grays Anatomy. Before I knew it the birds were singing, it was light outside and Mr C was getting up. I just wasn't tired.I went out with Mr C to get his weekly prescription, bought some fresh fruit and vegetables, made myself a comfort food breakfast and went to bed for 2 hours. I knew I shouldn't go for anymore or tonight might be a problem. But what am I going to do if the same thing happens tonight? Could this be an effect of the HRT as it can cause insomnia? What am I going to do if it is?
I've only got a couple more episodes of Grays Anatomy to watch and even Twitter went quiet on me (who'd have thought it!) What am I going to do!? What if this is a regular occurance? I'm bad enough now if I miss an hour but missing eight! I will drive everyone around me round the bend, I will go mental!! What am I going to do!?!
Well, I will do what I always do. Worry about if it happens, what's the point in wasting energy on something which hasn't come about yet?If it does, I will deal with it. If I don't sleep tonight, so what? It's not the end of the world.
I will have another couple of hours in the morning, start everything fresh and work some strategies to improve my chances of reducing my overdraft.
But if you are awake and about and you see me tweeting or Facebooking, say Hi! .......please
