This week's post has been brought to you with a healthy dollop of positive thinking and a sprinkling of hope.It's being written with the view of if you can fake it, after a while it becomes easier to do and hopefully the fake becomes something real and tangible.
It's been a difficult post to write (again!) and I kept putting it off. I want it to be real, I don't want to be fake and say it's ok when its not. So I'm reframing the facts to come at them from another angle.Saw my Consultant on Tuesday who confirmed Ted the Tumour was cancer, grade 2 and semi aggressive. So at least we now know. Am now waiting (yes waiting, but at least it can't be urgent) for an oncology appointment to discuss what the next steps are re treatment. Fingers crossed and all that.
To keep my mind off things, Mum and I went back to Cowslip Farm Workshop in the morning, our new favourite place for lunch. We discovered Homily Pie, I must get a recipe! It's an open pie filled with potato, onion and leek and topped with cheese, delicious.The wonderful menu there is primarily vegetarian and inspired me to cook again, so we enjoyed a tasty vegetable lasagne yesterday, with the extra sauce being used in a pasta bake today. Maybe my cooking oomph is back? Time will tell.
Spent a few hours with Jane, my daughter's partners mum who is so fantastic with everything crafty. She has hundreds of books to flick through to get inspired and she is so knowledgable. We took over my Mum's sewing machine for Jane to check out and make sure it was suitable for quilting, which is something she is hoping to get into. Mum's owned it for over 15 years, so her face was a picture when Jane showed her the different seam width options and the zig zag stitch. She was over the moon but also a little bit embarrassed!
I've a consult booked next Tuesday about removing my gallbladder. Ironic I still need the operation considering it was the original investigation to the gallballer pain which led to the ultrasound which found Ted the Tumour in my right kidney. Silver linings though, at least Ted was found reasonable early.
I'm so grateful to everyone I work with for all their messages and telephone calls. You've all been brilliant. My boss has been wonderful (thank you Vanessa) and very supportive. I'm very lucky and can't wait to get back to it.
I've decided each day to tackle each challenge with strength of purpose and an expectation to succeed. It just may take a while for the faking to become real, so wish me luck
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