Glass Half Full

Crochet Slippers....easy peasy!

2012-02-24T19:03:00.000Z

I managed to not only follow a pattern but also make something which wasn't a scarf or woolly hat!

Am pleased to present my first pair of slippers!

What do you think?

I found the pattern at Zoom Yummy, where there's lots of yummy arts and crafts! I think I'm a little bit in love with this site!

http://zoomyummy.com/2011/01/21/how-to-make-simple-crochet-slippers/

I'm now off to make another pair!

PS I wasn't asked to publicise this site, I just think credit where credit is due!

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 8 #R2BC

2012-02-23T13:59:00.000Z

Time to link and post my reasons to be cheerful for the week with Michelle from Mummy from the Heart I am going to take a leaf from her posting and keep things simple. At the moment it would be very easy for me to over analyse and get bogged down in the details; in the process trigger anxiety and stress.
So what is making me happy at the moment;
I've just been for my first ever reflexology session, which was offered free through The Mustard Tree, the Macmillan Centre attached to my hospital. I enjoyed it, booked another session for next week.
A large bar of chocolate and a cup of tea has my name on it. Looking forward to the taste sensations filling my mouth.
My kindle is fully charged and ready to go.
Am crocheting slippers instead of scarves! Will post a pic once I've got them to actually fit my feet (they are surprisingly **big, so I'm adapting the pattern) (UPDATE all done, here you go!)
I'm not crying, at the moment. This may change, but I'm not crying now!
The radio is on and I'm enjoying the pop music.
I believe I will find myself again soon
** The slippers, not my feet

Carrot and Ginger Soup

2012-02-23T13:18:00.000Z

This soup is delicious and from the Slimming World little book of soups and one I would recommend! Ideal to link up with Keith of Reluctant Housedad recipe shed infamy!

Serves 4
Ready in about 35 minutes

Syn Free
Ingredients
Low calorie spray
1 onion, peeled and chopped
2 celery sticks, peeled and chopped
2 garlic cloved, peeled and chopped
1.5cm piece of root ginger, peeled and finely grated
1 litre of vegetable stock
600g carrots, peeled and chopped
salt and freshly ground pepper
fat free natural yogurt and chopped parsley to serve

Spray a pan with low calorie spray and cook the onions, celery, garlic and ginger for 2-3 minutes

Add the stock and carrots and bring to the boil. Reduce the heat and simmer for 20 minutes, or until the carrots are tender. Season well

Leave it to cool for a while before blending until smooth.

Serve with a swirl of yogurt (in my case a blob!) and a sprinkle of parsley (missing from mine!)

I was delicious, warm and filling, just what you need on a cold evening. I love ginger and actually put a little bit more in than the recipe called for, so maybe experiment!!

Big Fat (funny) Fail

2012-02-22T08:35:00.000Z

The doorbell rang on Monday and there was a smiling man at the step with a large box in his arms. Once I signed and opened it I found these lovely flowers inside

They were from Jessie, my daughter's best friend from primary school. They didn't go to the same secondary school, but were very close, practically living in each other's houses! I probably haven't seen Jessie for over a year as she has moved to Manchester and Amy is now in London. So I was very touched by the gift.

I asked Amy for Jessie's mobile number so I could send her a text to thank her. This is what happened!

Whoops! Not only a wrong number, but also a typo!

Big fat funny fail!

Maybe Tomorrow....

2012-02-21T15:19:00.001Z

I'm not myself at the moment. I can't seem to stop crying and feeling sorry for myself. This isn't me. I am the person who copes and gets on with things. I'm the person who deals with it. And I don't like it.

Everyone I have spoken has said its okay to feel like this, totally understandable, however I am finding that difficult to accept.

I seem to be fixated on the operation date, for me its the next stage in the process (and I love a good process) And yes, I am a control freak (or I like to say a typical Virgo!), I know that!! However I also know I can't control everything.

I've spoken about the Serenity Prayer before

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.

I understand what I can influence and what I can't and let the other stuff wash over me (I think I would be basket case otherwise)

There are a lot of things I can't control in this situation, I've worked through things and realised I can't influence when a date is scheduled. I will trust the medical profession are working on this and won't make me wait unnecessarily.

But I am still emotional, why do I keep on feeling like this?

The one thing I can control is me and how I deal with things. Crying and the 'why me's' are normal and have a place. However long term, for me, its a waste of energy. Shit happens it's how you deal with it which makes a difference and this is what makes me, well me. I deal with things well. But at the moment, I'm not me.

I feel Guilt, with a big fat capital G.

Guilty for not being able to concentrate at work and letting people down there. Guilty for not feeling able to function properly at home and look after MrC. Guilty for being ill and putting my friends and family through this. But today I realised I actual feel Guilty for not coping. Why can't I be the strong person I am normally, the person who gets on with things. Shit happens, its how you deal with it which makes a difference.

And that fact is, I'm not dealing with it, I'm not even coping! I'm not in control of my emotions, they are very much in control of me.They are swirling around and intruding on my life, I don't like it. I'm not functioning very well.

And it's this, which is the problem; not the fact I have a tumour, not the fact its probably cancer. It's the realisation, the dawning that I'm not in control of myself and my emotions.

So in the spirit of shit happens, its how you deal with it which makes a difference, I need to accept, lose the ~~Guilt~~ guilt, open up to things, go with how I feel. And maybe tomorrow I will feel better, there is always tomorrow to look forward to.

Wish me luck! Oh, and have some man sized tissues to hand at all times.

Meal Planning Monday w/c 20th of February

2012-02-20T14:44:00.002Z

It's Monday and its Meal Planning from At Home with Mrs M. I'm a bit late this week, because I had convinced myself I would be going for surgery, but as that's not happening I've had to plan my meals! As usual, all Slimming World friendly and as syn free as possible to give me lots of treats!

In no particular order this week we are having:

Homemade meatballs and spaghetti (syn free)

Baked potato and green salad (syn free)

Spinach and cottage cheese lasagna (syn free)

Slow cooker gammon, pineapple and wedges (syn free)

Cottage pie and vegetables (syn free)

Slimming World chips with eggs and tomato spicy salsa (syn free)

Carrot and ginger soup (syn free)

(Wow! Just realised its a syn free meal week! More treat food!)

Pretty standard, the only new thing for me is the soup, which I will be blogging later in the week, so check back then if you are interested!

As I'm working from home at the moment (I love my company!) I'll be able to cook lunches fresh, so noodles, rice and peas and fresh fruit salads are going to be in abundance.

If you need any further inspiration (if my menu isn't enough :P) then get yourself over to Mrs M and take a look. But of course, don't forget to leave me a comment and make a blogger very happy

My brother's e-mail : Part 2 the egg addition

2012-02-18T22:09:00.000Z

Following on from the last email from my brother, I got another from him earlier today

from: brothersemail@hotmail.com

to: myemail@googlemail.com

Subject: FW Hello

Hi Fay,

I spoke to mum and dad today and heard you were in a bad way. I 've spoken to Juliette and we've agreed that if and when you good enough to travel there's a bed waiting here for you if you want to get away.

Granted you'll have to shell out a couple of thousand on air fair, put up with at least 25 hours of flying and a two hour car journey from Auckland down to Cambridge but when you get here there's a four bedroom house, a comfy bed and as much home brew as you'd want.

If it's a holiday you're after Matamata is half an hour away which if you've seen Lord of the Rings is where Hobbiton from Lord of the Rings is set. Yes, we live in Hobbiton country. Indeed with the green rolling hills and Hobbit like hairy toenails on offer by me and the locals there can be no better place on offer. Alas we can't offer much in the way of nightly entertainment except a cushioned seat to read books and the world wide web to illegally download Grey's Anatomy and Sherlock Holmes in hi def, but we live a simple life all the same. We have twelve chickens of which seven are cockerels and they're happy to surround the house at 5am to crow and wake you up. We have one laying chicken who has gone broody and decided to hide her eggs somewhere else but when we find out where there will be a fresh single egg daily. You'll have to fight Eva for it but she's four and half & so you'll have the height advantage.

Perhaps don't come in our winter though as the house has but one wood burning stove. It has two settings, freezing or the burning heat of the Sun. I'm trying to get the setting's right for the whole house but so far my research has proved fruitless. You are of course welcome to chop wood; it is a most pleasing exercise once you get past the potential for lopping your toes off. That sounds like a joke but I've got a steel capped pair of boots with a dent in already. You can of course come when ever but be warned about the winters. If sometimes gets down to freezing at night here which leaves a slight frost on the grass. Crazy weather!

You can hire a car or borrow one of ours for day trips (here the car is insured not the driver) of which we can offer both the east coast of the North Island of New Zealand and the west coast of the North Island of New Zealand. These offer oceans, sand and horizons in spades. To the north we have Auckland which is okay if you like international large cities with record high towers offering glass floor views and award winning restaurants, but we prefer the Waitomo Glow Caves and Rotorua to the south. Look them up ... if you're not expecting too much than you'll love it!

The bottom line is there's a pillow here waiting for your head to indent it. There's a niece and nephew you've either haven't seen for a while or never met yet and they'll love your mad aunty ways and ability to baby sit while their mum and dad go out on the lash. Plus don't forget about the home brew.

Love,

Mark xxx

P.S. It'd be really cool just to go outside and look up the all the stars we never got to see living in a city. I went outside tonight and there's millions but I haven't anyone with the same experiences to share it with. Sure there's Tom the cat but he came with the house and he's so f*cking blazè about everything.

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I asked him this time if I could blog this e-mail. His response?

Sure blog it if you want to. Just leave out our address at the end in case someone wants to come round and steal our eggs. I mean egg.

Love Mark xxx

'Brave Face? Anyone got a spare one?'

2012-02-18T15:29:00.001Z

I tweeted the title of this post earlier today and then felt maybe I shouldn't have. Maybe putting a brave face on isn't the done thing, especially when I'd said earlier in the week, proudly and bravely 'I'm Back'

But do you know what, I don't think there is anything wrong with putting on a brave face, its no different to paying special attention to how you look.

How many of us have agonised over the outfit to wear for an important meeting or interview? The appraisal with the boss? Or a teacher conference to attend, where we think we are going to be told our little dear is not as delightful to teach as they used to be (No?!...is that just me?)

Wearing the right clothes can create a good impression on others but also give us confidence. As Shakespeare said

'Clothes Maketh the Man'

It's the same as 'putting on your face' in the morning to meet the world, that layer of carefully applied foundation and maybe kick ass red lipstick to say look at me, I'm okay. And if even you are not, the layer, the layer of confidence in the way you look, can rub off and start to affect how you really feel. Practice that confidence and the 'can do kick ass attitude' and you begin to believe in it too.

And that's what I meant when I said I needed a brave face. I just needed some help to face the world. I needed to slap the veneer of positivity to me. This is what will build me up, bolster and point me in the right direction; to keep going and feel better and create the attitude I need to experience this stage of my life without turning into a total basket case!

So not only did Shakespeare say 'Clothes Maketh the Man'

Friedrich Nietzsche also said

'What Doesn’t Kill You Makes You Stronger'

Both statements are applicable and equally interchangeable!

PS - Any excuse for a pic of Joseph Fiennes!

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 7 #R2BC

2012-02-16T10:17:00.000Z

This week's Reasons to be Cheerful is being hosted by Claire from Seasider in the City, so don't forget to get yourselves over there and show some love!

I've managed to get my mojo back and wrote about it yesterday (I'm Back) Not feeling so great today though ( I'm not as bad as I was with this post I am not a patient number ) but at least I know I can be normal!

My company have suggested I work from home while I wait for an operation date. Monday I couldn't face work at all, I felt I was letting everyone down and because my brain isn't in a good place, I was also stressing about mistakes I could make. So to be able to take it easy, work from home and be available if anyone who is taking over my workload have questions, is amazing and very compassionate.

I've decided to use the waiting time to get fitter (well as fit as three possible weeks will allow, better than nothing!) So booked for a one to one session with Les at my gym to improve my workout. He was brilliant, very kind, compassionate and understanding. He's put together a gentle programme to build up my core strength with 8 exercises, low weight, which I complete as a circuit. Plan to visit every day and am sure I will see results very soon.

I'm getting a lot of love and support on Twitter and Facebook which is keeping me going and I have also recommitted to the Serenity Prayer to stop myself getting so stressed about things I can't control! Long may it continue!

Take care everyone and here's to another good week and hopefully the news next week I have a date to get rid of #tedthetumour

I'm Back!

2012-02-15T17:53:00.002Z

And what better way to celebrate my 20,000 tweet but with a blog post!

The news last week of #tedthetumour on my right kidney, was unexpected but deep down I still believed when I saw the consultant, he'd say it was benign. So 90% chance of cancer knocked me for six.

I've spent the 5 days since, feeling very sorry for myself, swinging from hysterical crying and wailing to total bitch mode and the myriad of emotions in between.

But this morning (following a 12 hour sleep, jealous??) and the fact I've managed to secure a Bupa consultant appointment (it's not till next week, but at least I have two avenues now for getting an operation date) I feel my positive mojo is back.

I'm back!

Crying, wailing and generally feeling sorry for myself are useful in 'the moment', however it wasn't helping long term. It was sapping my energy and not accomplishing anything worthwhile. I was acting like a person I didn't want to be, someone I didn't even actually like.

And I'm not being naive, I know the likelihood of it being cancer is high, but I'll worry and focus on that, when I need to.

The Serenity Prayer which I've mentioned in post's before is really helping.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

It's concentrated me onto what's important, and being as calm, centered and positive as possible will help in the long term.

Meal Planning Monday w/c 13th February

2012-02-13T11:38:00.001Z

I missed last week's meal planning but think I had a good excuse! But in the spirit of 'keep on going' I'm back on the proverbial horse. (Have actually decided because I've a few weeks wait before Operation #Ted I'm going to use the time to lose some more weight and get a bit fitter)

So onto this weeks Slimming World menu plan and in no particular order:-

Homemade carrot and coriander soup (Syn free)
Spicy beef (in the freezer) with roasted vegetable couscous (Syn free)
Roasted vegetable soup with brown roll and salad (Syn free if the roll is HE)
Faggots, potatoes and vegetables (6 syns)
Butternnut squash risotto and vegetables (Syn free)
Bolognaise with pasta (Syn free)
Dry fried eggs, slimming world chips & beans

Lunches will be a lot of leftovers, but have also bought some lower fat super noodles which are syn free and very warming (just right for this time of year!) and plan to mix with tinned bean salad, salad or roasted vegetables.

Managed to lose a pound last week even though I comfort ate.....a lot! It could be #Ted the tumour causing the weight loss, but the pounds that do come of will make life easier when I get a date for him to be evicted for good!

Don't forget to get yourself over to the truly wonderful and recently revamped site of At Home With Mrs M to see other people linking up with Meal Planning Monday.

And don't forget, weight loss is all in the planning!

I am not a (patient) number

2012-02-12T19:18:00.001Z

I am not a (patient) number (or statistic) to be recorded and put onto graphs to hospital management.

I've entered a system, which I want to understand, a system of checks and 'service level agreements' and 'deadlines' but the more I investigate, the more questions I ask, the more I feel me becoming that which I don't want to become.

My 'project plan' or 'timeline' so far

Wednesday 1st of February (DAY 1)

9am - Ultrasound appointment at radiology where a 'something' is found on my right kidney

6pm - my GP calls and explains it is a tumour and tells me about the two week window for treatment. A CT scan appointment will be coming through to confirm the ultrasound findings

Thursday 2nd of February (DAY 2)

11am - called with a date for the CT scan, booked 9.40am Sunday 5th of February

Friday 3rd of February (DAY 3)

10.30am - speak to my GP to confirm the details from our call on Wednesday night (I may not have been taking it all in!) Confirms the timings for treatment, it must start at 14 days from diagnosis

Sunday 5th of February (DAY 5)

9.40am - I have CT scan. The Radiologist explained the results would go to the multi disciplinary team or MDT (a group of experts made up of Oncology, Radiology and Eurology) for them to make a decision on whether treatment is needed and if so, what. The next meeting is scheduled for the next day, Monday 6th of February

Tuesday 7th of February (DAY 7)

Called with a consultants appointment which is 9.40 on Friday 10th of February

Friday 10th of February (DAY 10)

I have my appointment. Up to now things have made sense, I can see the next steps clearly from the information I have been given. But now things change.

My consultant, Mr S, explains I have a tumour, which has a 90% chance of being cancer. I will need an operation to remove the kidney. I go into 'ask questions and understand process' mode.

I'm told 'The next steps is for the MDT to meet and agree the exact treatment plan, operation date will be set after that. It will be sometime in the 30 days after that MDT meeting'

But that's ok, the MDT met on Monday didn't they? (DAY 6)

No they didn't

'don't know why you were told that'

'They will be meeting the following week on Friday 17th of February (DAY 17) They meet every Friday afternoon'

My operation date could be anytime between MDT decision date (DAY 17) and 30 days later (DAY 47) which is 17th of March. Thats 47 days from when the tumour was found.

But hold on, I was originally told, 14 days from the 1st of February but that has extended to 47????? What's happened? Why is it 47 days?

Ok, I may have misunderstood my GP and the 14 day deadline, that is quite possible.

And I get that the consultant, MrS has 30 days from MDT decision on what needs to be done (how can you book a slot when you don't know the extent of the surgery?) however I am struggling with the other delay:

The MDT actually meet every Friday afternoon, why isn't my case discussed the day of my appointment, Friday 10th of February? MrS met me in the morning, the team meet in the afternoon, simple surely? The hospital has had my ultrasound and CT scan since the Monday, they knew I was coming in on the Friday, so you'd put me on the MDT meeting, yes?

Which is actually 37 days

It feels like a whole week of wasted time, 7 days of my case being sat on a desk or computer.

But also, the cynical side of me sees this as an 'extra 7' days to meet 'targets'; that I wasn't included on the MDT that day to give extra time, to ensure targets are met.

Don't get me wrong, I am not blaming anyone I have met or will meet as I go through the 'process' or 'project plan' They are doing a difficult job and if they could give me a date the next day they would.

I'm just saying something doesn't feel right, it feels like figures are being manipulated, I've become a number, a patient number, a part of the system. Too much emphasis on the report, the number and the person. The scared person, the woman, the wife, the mother, the daughter, the sister

And its not a good feeling

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 6 #R2BC

2012-02-11T15:51:00.001Z

I can sense a theme here, another extremely late posting again to join with Michelle of Mummy from the Heart but anyone who knows or follows will forgive me. I hope dear reader you do too!

I have had to really dig deep to write the post and keep my integrity. I've got an agreement to never misrepresent myself and have had to really pull myself up and out of a spiral to eventual emotional meltdown. 2012 is turning out to be very challenging.

Some great things have happened this week.

- I attended a brilliant course for work, which I'll talk about another time, but I know will change things for me
- Realisation of what a wonderfully supportive bunch of people I've the pleasure of working with.
- Total strangers sometimes offer the most supportive shoulders to cry on, literally
- I got to spend some time laughing with my daughter when I visited on Thursday
- I also spent a few hours with my sister (long car journey and several hours sat in a waiting room)

However these 'highlights' of my week have come at a high price as #Ted the Tumour is now real. The consultant on Friday confirmed there is a 90% chance its cancerous. My positive outlook has taken a big bashing. In fact it feels like I've not only been hit over the head with a dustbin, but trampled by a herd of elephants afterwards too!

There are a lot of people out there rooting for me, MrC and my kids, my family, friends, Twitter and Facebook people, blog readers and so on.

So I stand by what I said last week, I am lucky. Not only that it was found, but also because of the support I will continue to get, as I fight

And I may also be one of the 10%

Family!?

2012-02-04T15:20:00.001Z

We are a family of pragmatists with a hint of black humour, as aptly demonstrated by an e-mail from my brother, who emigrated to New Zealand over two years ago
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from: myemail@googlemail.com
to: brothersemail@hotmail.com

Subject: Hello

Hiya

Now I know you are worried, I only seem to email when I'm having surgery! Well sorry to break it to you but guess what?

Yep, surgery again. This time for a tumour on my kidney. I've been having problems with my gallbladder and was referred for a ultrasound. Normal procedure is to check the other organs while they are there and luckily for me, they found it!

Someone is looking out for me! I have no symptoms!

On the plus side, they will probably remove my gallbladder at the same time, so two for the price of one!!

Won't know what the next steps are until they remove and biopsy it, but will keep you upto date and am pretty sure I will be blogging it!!

Anyway, love you, love to Juliet and my niece and nephew. Promise I will get my Skype sorted eventually!

Take care

His reply

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from: brothersemail@hotmail.com

to: myemail@googlemail.com

Subject: FW Hello

Hi Fay,

Sort of don't know what to say really except get well soon (except you're not ill ill but potentially ill). I have no idea what the gallbladder does unless I Google it and spend a few minutes on Wikipedia. Obviously it's not important otherwise they won't be whipping it out. I'll Google it later.

Anyway, chin up, don't peg out on us just yet and all (do you know how much it'd cost me to fly back for your funeral?! Have a heart. We're trying to get a new bathroom fitted and Juliette wants a Victorian slipper bath with claw feet, not some plastic do-dah from the local B&Q).

Sorry for the late reply, I hope this isn't the last e-mail you read before going under, or worse, the e-mail MrC sorts through because yes, you did expire on the operating table. Hello MrC. How's things? Obviously not good at the moment...

If you do die, don't Skype me. At least not with the Video On. Sam being one year old would be okay, he hasn't a clue bless him, but Eva's four and half now and knows about dead things. Questions will be asked.

Love,

Mark

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All I can say to that is

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 5 #R2BC

2012-02-02T18:52:00.000Z

Think this is the first time this year, I've managed to get my reasons from the brilliant and wonderful Michelle at Mummy from the Heart published on Thursday. I've always been a day or two late. If I thought last week's was a slog, this week has been a challenge!

Yesterday (I can't believe it was only yesterday) I went for an ultrasound scan to look at my gallbladder to see if it needed surgery. While there, the radiographer had a look around all my other bits and pieces. Bit like when the car is on the ramp for the brakes, why wouldn't you take a look at the exhaust at the same time?

So I'm lying there enduring the cold gel and the fact it gets everywhere, when she says she going to get the consultant to check out 'something' she can see on my right kidney. "Its probably {{insert medical term I don't understand}} but want my boss to check it out" Second opinion lady (very nice too and a senior consultant to boot) comes in, very reassuring and agrees. Nothing to worry about but will order a CT scan and get it checked in more detail. "Ultrasounds can sometimes create more questions than provide answers" , blah de blah, reassuring spiel.

Alarm bells are going off, but I'm a calm person, no need to worry until I'm fully informed and in possession of the facts. Ring round the special people in my life (sorry if you didn't get a call :)) let them know (my daughter asked what was she going to do when she needed a spare kidney now!? Oh how we laughed) and carried on with my day.

Get home from work when my GP calls to drop the bombshell. The ** 'something' is a 6 cm tumour; It will need to be removed and soon. Won't know the prognosis until its removed as a biopsy is needed before deciding its cancer, either way, its coming out. (I've papraphased heavily, you don't want the full conversation I'm sure, but let me know....)

So can you see why I'm struggling this week?

But I can see a glimmer of cheerfulness in this, this is what makes me..... well me.

Wow! I've got a tumour, which I didn't know I had, have had no symptoms of and it was found by accident??? How fortuitous is that?

Personally I don't think you can ask for more, someone is looking after me. When would it have been found? How big would it have gotten (cos I don't know about you, 6cm seems big enough!) I am very very lucky (maybe I should buy a lottery ticket this week??!)

I'll deal with the rest of the crap as it comes up, and I know you'll all think I'm off my rocker, but please allow me this one indulgence.

Oh, and the GP said I may be able to get a two for one surgery and have my gallbladder out at the same time! Result!
** thinking of calling it Ted the Tumour, what do you think? Got any better names?

Alone and Quiet

2012-02-02T00:07:00.000Z

It's a little bit chilly and dark as I creep out of bed, past MrC who is snoring (quietly) and tip toe past Fritz, spreadeagled at the top of the stairs.

I carefully walk down the stairs, cringing at the noisy ones, hoping not to wake anyone. Because I want a little bit of alone time, a little bit of quiet.

MrC springs awake and asks me (in a stage whisper!) "You okay?"

"Yes, I'm just going downstairs for a hot chocolate"

"I'll come with you"

"Please don't, I just want a few minutes alone, a bit of quiet time" I can hear the reluctance in his voice, but "Okay, shout if you need me"

So I continue down the stairs and as I open the kitchen door, the latch makes a little pop sound; the dog comes alive and bounds down to join me, tail wagging, just a little bit. But he soon changes his mind. There's no food to be had and quietly makes his way back to his listening post, on the landing, where he can keep watch on his pack.

I think he realises my need for some alone and quiet time

I'm sat at the desk looking out of the blackened window, the curtains are open. But it's not quite dark out there. There's a moon glowing in the night sky and bathing my garden with its grey illumination. There's no wind, so the tree is still, casting shadows onto the gravel path. It helps, to just look, to just think.

Today I was told I have a tumour on my right kidney, found by accident by the radiographer, being thorough. She'd checked my gallbladder and confirmed I had gallstones and continued, as she was there anyway, to give me the once over. And in that darkened room, lit only by the light from ultrasound monitor,with the shadows cast by the examination table, she found it.

So I'm taking some time, to think. Some alone time, to just sit and think, and bring myself back together

Meal Planning Monday w/c 30th January

2012-01-30T08:45:00.002Z

It's Monday, so its Meal Planning Monday with at Home with Mrs M. My homage to being organised and my one stop shop to staying on track with Slimming World, because planning is the key to success!

No shopping list for me this week, because its all about the freezer! I have a chest freezer which lives in the shed in the garden. It's a horrible place just recently because my son is in charge of keeping it tidy (whoever thought that would be a good idea should be shot) and you can't actually step inside any more. It's not pleasant leaning over all the crap to get it open and then peer inside with the rain coming down. However the freezer is full to capacity, so thought I should at least take a look and see what meals I could plan out of it. Suffice it to say, I have all of this weeks, and probably most of next!

So here we go!

Slow cooker spicy beef (Syn free)
Faggots, mash and vegetables (about 6 Syns)
Sausage casserole (4 syns)
Carrot and coriander soup (Syn free)
Home made fish cakes, slimming world chips and mushy peas (Syn free)
Homemade burgers and wedges
Roast chicken, potatoes and vegetables (1 syn for the gravy)

Not bad! And on the weight loss front I managed to lose 1lb from last's weeks menu. It's slowing down, but all I need is a steady 4 lbs a month to reach my target this year.

There's mine, if you'd like to see more, get yourself over to At Home with Mrs M for more meal planners!

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 4 #R2BC

2012-01-27T09:01:00.000Z

Week 4 and the time of the week to look back on the great things which have happened, however on reflection its been a slog. My #brokenbum seems to be getting worse (or is it all in my mind) and there's a possibility I may have a problem with my gall bladder. Both conditions are painful and cause nausea, but looking on the brighter side of life, there's a lot worse things which could happen at sea!

So this is why I enjoy joining up with Michelle at Mummy from the Heart as it 'makes' me look back and find the nuggets. Which leads me onto my first reason:

I'm a winner! Thanks to Michelle I shall soon be the proud owner of my very own Silver Mai Tui Ava Style Bag! Very excited, I love handbags and bags in general and have a feeling this one is going to get a lot of use! Well done to all the winners, and another big thank you to Michelle for the opportunity to be in with a chance.

I spent the day on Tuesday at my company's yearly conference, which this year was themed around Britain's Got Talent. I really appreciate the time, effort and lets face it, the money my employer invests in events like this. It makes me feel proud to be part of the company. I got to spend a large portion of the day chatting to colleagues I haven't seen in person since the last conference or putting faces to voices/e-mails of new colleagues. So much time that I totally lost my voice on Wednesday. I'm sure if MrC were to join in Reasons to be Cheerful then this would have made his list!

My subscription to Slimming World was coming to end, and I've been undecided as whether I should renew or not. But when I got up this morning and weighed in, it just didn't feel right to not record and go and check the website out! So the decision has been made, to resubscribe for another year! And for my last reason this week, I've managed to lose another 1lb, which brings my total loss this year to 1 stone!

Long may the weight loss (no matter how slowly) continue!

Shopping List w/c 23rd of January

2012-01-23T09:24:00.002Z

I've got some 'naughty' things on my shopping list this week to accompany My Meal Planning Monday. But in my defence, Slimming World teaches you to eat what you want in moderation, which is why there are a couple of chocolate items on the list this week. So please remember that (and try not to judge me....... :) )

Screen wash (£1.97)
Pepsi x 2 (£3)
Surf washing fluid (£4)
Classic coffee 400 g (£2.49)
Semi Skimmed Milk x 12 pints (£3.44)
Full fat milk x 6 pints (£1.74)
4 packs of meat (Mince, bacon and stewing beef) (£10)
Tinned tomatoes x 2 (£0.82)
Value baked beans x 5 (£0.34 each)
Bag of salad leaves (£1.74)
Bag of crisp salad leaves (£0.99)
2kg bag of potatoes (£1.45)
Stew pack of vegetables (£1.50)
2kg bag of parsnips (£1.50)
Pack of courgettes (£1.64)
2 tubes of toothpaste (£0.70 each)
Butternut squash (£1.12)
Reduced pack of scones (£1.19)
Bag of value peppers (£1.25)
Soap (£1.50)
2 bags of sprouts (£1) BOGOF
Cucumber (£0.80)
Cadbury Buttons and bag of cadbury raisins (£3)
Cheerios (£2.75)
Cereal Bars x 4 bogof (£2.28 in total)
Wholemeal bread x 2 (£0.69 each)
Eggs (£1.45)

In total around £60.52 I've got a few bits and pieces to use from the freezer this week, but I feel that's not a bad shop

To get back to the meal planning, click here

Meal Planning Monday w/c 23rd of January

2012-01-23T09:23:00.001Z

Last week was a success in the meal planning front as I think we've eaten everything planned bar one. Sausage casserole turned into sausage sandwiches, but they were lovely!

Another success was I lost a pound, which brings my total this year to 13, another 2 lbs and I will have lost my Christmas weight!

Onto this week, all Slimming World friendly, so low fat and sugar. In no particular order:

Beef Stew (no Syns if I don't have dumplings)
Roasted Chicken with garlic roasted vegetables (Syn Free)
Garlic Roasted Vegetable Soup (Syn free and a great way to use leftovers!)
Faggots, Mash and Veg (About 8 Syns for 2 faggots)
Homemade Burger, Slimming World Chips and Colslaw (about 2 Syns for the coleslaw)
Baked Potato with Leeks and Smoked Haddock (Syn free)

I'm working away at least one day this week, so the boys will make do with beef stew leftovers with lots of bread, it always tastes better the second day anyway!

Don't forget to take a look over At Home With Mrs M for more inspirational meal planners, for all tastes, budgets and waistlines!

And you if you want to see my shopping list, click here!

Listography - Top 5 Biscuits

2012-01-22T17:04:00.000Z

Nooooooooo!

My beautifully crafted post has disappeared! The blogging gremlin has struck!

Will go hunting and fix it tonight

Please pop back later

XXXX

Spicy Beef and Red Pepper Stew

2012-01-22T16:34:00.002Z

This recipe is so easy and tasty and one I will definitely make again. I found it in Jan/Feb 2012 edition of the Slimming World Magazine.

Serves 4
Ready in about 2 hours 30 minutes

Ingredients
800g of stewing steak with all visible fat removed and cut into cubes
3 crushed garlic cloves
2cm piece of fresh root ginger peeled and grated (I used powered)
1 tsp ground cumin
1 tsp ground coriander
1 tsp of medium curry powder
4 large red peppers deseeded and cut into large bite sized pieces
2 large onions cut into wedges
400g of passata
800ml of beef stock
1 cinnamon sticks (am sure powdered would work as well)
2 cloves (I didn't have any, so didn't use them)
3 cardamom pods, lightly crushed (I had these, yay!)
Salt and pepper to season
Finely chopped fresh coriander

The easy version is to put all the ingredients into a large heavy based saucepan. Season well and bring to the boil, then simmer for 2 to 2.5 hours or until the beef is tender.

Remove the cinnamon stick and cloves (if you used them), stir in the coriander and serve!

Syn Value - free on extra easy

I told you it was easy. I served mine with couscous to soak up the lovely rich gravy. Am sure this can be easily adapted for a slow cooker, by removing a lot of the stock.

Enjoy and let me know how you get on with it!

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 3 #R2BC

2012-01-22T15:42:00.000Z

Better late than never as I always say! It's that time of the week (well 3 days late!) to look back and record the great things which have happened. Don't forget to check back at Michelle's site, Mummy from the Heart to see other people's reasons.

Without further ado......

Work is extremely busy (one reason for the late post) because I was out of the office for three days on a course. However I am now a proud owner of a first aid at work certificate. This isn't the certificate, that will be coming in the post and I've managed to lose the badge already (!!!?) but hey ho.

I also only managed to kill the instructor twice (I didn't know you should not lay people flat who were having heart attacks or strokes!! But I do now!)

Is it wrong I am almost waiting for someone to ill so I can practise??

I have also managed to lose another pound in weight, which takes the total this year to 13. Another 2 and I will have lost my Christmas weight, which means I only (only....!?) have 3 stones to lose this year to reach my target. But more of that I'm sure as the year progresses.

I've also taken delivery of this!

My coccyx cushion! So my #brokenbum is a lot more comfortable at work!

And talking about work, my last reason to be cheerful was following an email exchange, from a manager who I have never met, saying he enjoyed reading my blog. What more could a girl ask for! I'm famous! Or is that infamous.......

Anyway, don't forget to check out Michelle's Reasons to be Cheerful and why not join in too! I promise, it will make you feel better as there is always something which has lightened the week, no matter how dark it feels

Shopping List - 16th January

2012-01-16T07:24:00.000Z

My shopping list from the first Meal Planning Monday seemed to go down well, so have decided to give it another go. As usual I have shopped at Tesco. Where possible, I try not to go mad and usually choose the value or own brand options.

5 kg of potatoes (£1.69)
12 pints of semi-skimmed milk (£3.48)
12 pints of full fat milk (£3.48)
dishwasher tablets x 60 (£6)
Luncheon meat £0.75)
Lamb kidneys( £1.28)
Lamb livers (£1.15)
Cottage cheese with chives (£0.69)
Packet sauce mix (£0.49)
Tomato Ketchup (£1.69)
Value low fat yogurts pack of four x 2 (£0.66)
Beef Casserole Steak x 2
Thick cut bacon - 3 packs of meat for( £10)
Low fat sausages (£1.98)
Low fat soft cheese (£1.07)
Cheerios (£2.75)
Rocket salad leaves (£1)
Butter beans tinned (£0.98)
Baked beans x 2 (£0.68)
400 g coffee (£2.15)
Tinned mixed bean salad (£0.92)
Sandwich tomato's pack of 4 (£0.80)
Passata x 2 (£0.92)
Oxo Cubes 12 pack (didn't have any bigger packs grrrr) (£0.75)
Ground rice (£0.99)
Flaked rice (£0.69)
Gala apples (£1)
2 kg pack of fresh tomatoes (£2)
Cereal bars for Mr C x 4 (£2.28)
MU lighter cheddar cheese (£3.50)
Mixed bag of peppers (£1.65)
Cabbage (£1)
Macaroni pasta (£1.40)
2kg bag of carrots (£0.89)
Tiny pasta bows (£0.75)
Brussel sprouts (£1)
Pack of onions (£1.05)
Fresh basil plant (£1.25)
2 loaves of bread(£1)
Notebook (£1.10)
18 value eggs (£1.45)

Total bill was £73.21 (or round about that!)

So for that, we have gotten food, drinks and householder cleaning stuff for the week. To get yourself back to the Meal Planning Monday, click here!

Meal Planning Monday w/c 16th January

2012-01-16T07:23:00.000Z

Feel really bad that I missed last week's meal planner. Only the second one of the year and I missed it. But if I am being honest, it would have looked like this

I am away working all week, the boys will be eating tinned stuff and I will be stuffing myself from restaurants and hotel menu's

Boring really, but what I could have told you was following my first week back on Slimming World and I lost 9.5 pounds! And last week, even though I ate out nearly every night I managed to lose 2.5 pounds. Go me! 12 pounds in two weeks and everything going in the right direction!
As promised I have also blogged the recipes for the Butter Bean and Cumin Soup and Pumpkin and Butternut Squash Risotto
The best way for me to stay on track is to plan, plan and plan and Mrs M's Meal Planning Monday is ideal. Get yourself over there for more meal planning, but if Slimming World is your bag, I'm your girl

So onto this week, in no particular order so I can move things around a bit depending on how I feel and workload:-

*Tomato and Basil Risotto (syn free)
*Liver and Onions, with Mash and Cabbage (syn free)
Sausage Casserole (4 syns)
*Macaroni Cheese (3 syns)
*Spicy Beef and Red Pepper Stew (syn free)
Homemade burgers and Coleslaw (syn free)
*Cheese and Onion Pie (4 syns)

Lunches will be salads with couscous or pasta, left-overs or soups. And breakfast is going to be good old beans on toast. It's really helped me keep on track for the day.
There are a few new recipes on there for me (marked with a *) Will blog them if they work out.

There you go, my meal planner. Get yourself over to Meal Planning Monday from at Home with Mrs M for more inspiration.

And if you'd like to see the shopping list for this week, click here

Pumpkin and Butternut Squash Risotto

2012-01-15T17:08:00.001Z

I love a risotto, they are quick and easy to make, creamy and tasty. The texture as the food moves over the taste-buds is delightful! Another recipe I saw in a diabetic cook book, which I've adapted. The squashes make a beautiful creamy nutty flavour which compliments the rice beautifully

Serves 4

Ingredients
1 cal spray
1 lb 2oz of cubed pumpkin or butternut squash or mix of the two
1 chopped onion
1 cloves of garlic
8 oz of risotto rice
1/4 pint of dry white wine
1.4 pints of vegetable stock
salt and pepper
4 tsp of Parmesan cheese
fresh parsley, chopped

Spray saucepan with 1 cal and saute the pumpkin and/or butternut squash for 5 to 10 minutes.
Add the chopped onion and garlic and saute for another 5 minutes
Stir in the rice and white wine
Simmer gently until the wine is absorbed
In the meantime, make up your vegetable stock and keep it warm in another saucepan
Add the stock a ladle at a time until all the stock is used and the rice is tender.
Check the taste and season if needed. Stir in the parsley and Parmesan and serve on warmed plates.

Syn Value - about 3 per serving

The Syns come from the white wine and Parmesan cheese, it can be made without both ingredients and become Syn free. I think the added Syns are worth it for the taste though!

Enjoy!

Butter Bean & Cumin Soup

2012-01-15T16:50:00.001Z

I saw this recipe in a diabetic cook book, as my mum has recently been diagnosed and adapted it slightly to reduce the Syns. It's wonderfully warming, tasty and was great with a big green salad and wholemeal roll

Serves 4

Ingredients

8oz of dried butter beans

1 cal spray

1 large chopped onion

2 large chopped carrots

2 pints of vegetable stock

1 tsp of ground cumin

fat free natural yogurt

salt and pepper

Syn Value - big fat zero 0 for the soup.

Rinse the beans and put in a large bowl. Cover with water and leave to soak for at least 12 hours. I did mine overnight. I am sure tinned butter beans would work too and no need to soak but I was watching the pennies!

In a large saucepan, spray the 1 cal and gentle 'fry' the onions and carrots for 5 minutes until the are soft.

Add the beans, stock and cumin. Bring to the boil and reduce the heat, simmer for an hour until the beans are tender

Once cooked and cooled slightly whizz in the food processor (or in my case a handheld whizzer!) Season and then return to the pan to warm through.

Once spooned into the bowls, put a swirl of yogurt in the soup and serve.

The soup is thick and has a velvety texture on the tongue. Next time I do this, I am going to experiment and replace the cumin with chillie.

Reasons to be Cheerful #R2BC Week 2

2012-01-14T13:15:00.001Z

Wow, what a week! Been so busy, I've not know whether I have been coming or going. However at the same time its been a great one, for lots of reasons.
Firstly, thank you so much to Michelle for recommending me on her post this week, very unexpected. I certainly don't feel I'm inspirational, I'm just trying to get through and enjoy my life with as little fuss and drama as possible. When things go wrong, which happens to us all, I turn things around to see the brighter side. I find once accepted, I can move on and deal with it better. Don't get me wrong, it's not easy to do, but ultimately I feel better for it. So my fight last year wasn't pleasant, but I've met some wonderful people because of it.
Onto my second great news, I've been awarded a liebster by @Funky_wellies I wasn't having the best evening when I read it, and it made my night! Really cheered my up, so thank you. I'm now thinking about my acceptance/thank you post!
The week has been busy because I spent 4 nights away working, which although hard for the diet (more on that shortly) meant I got to meet more of my wonderful colleagues. I work for a brilliant company, full of talented people and whenever I get out and about, they truly energise me. Our team meeting, the first this year, with lots of new people, felt so comfortable and like we'd been working together for months, not the first time we'd collectively met. The dinner at Tylney Hall was amazing, I think I will blog that another time!
Which leads me onto the ~~diet~~ healthy eating plan!. Eating out technically isn't hard, there are a lot of healthy choices, however I can be easily led! Truth be known, I wasn't looking forward to it! But this week, I kept at it, enjoyed what was on offer, ate well (as in healthily) but didn't feel hard done by. And it paid off with a 2.5 lb loss. That's 12 lb this year, how could I top that as a reason to be cheerful?
Well I can, with a trip into London on Monday, to have dinner with my daughter Amy. I spotted her through the crowd at Waterloo Station and it struck me how much she had changed in the short time she'd been there following the move in September. She looked confident as she strode through the concourse, dodging people as she went. Being small has it's advantages! She is just so happy and although its not a bed of roses, she's making choices and decisions to improve things. I'm proud of her and it was wonderful to see Amy in her own, new environment. My little girl, is now a woman! My job is now complete .......... (if you know what I mean!) She has her own blog Marvelous Adventures of a Devon Girl, go and take a look and see what you think.
Don't forget to check out Michelle's post and the other people who take the time to link up each week. And remember, it takes more energy to frown that it does to smile, plus it feels better!

Reasons to be Cheerful Week 1 #R2BC

2012-01-06T09:39:00.001Z

Happy New Year! There has got to be date when you don't say that to anyone anymore, do you know when that is??

I love this meme, I have no idea why I fell by the wayside in December, but here I am back, all shiny and new. And that is how I feel about this time of year. I used to find the New Year, the celebration itself very depressing. I felt there was a lot of pressure to have a good time, meet with friends and celebrate the start of the new year. But as soon as I realised, I was the one putting the pressure onto myself, the holidays became mine again. Something to enjoy and savour my way. So I spent it with MrC, quietly at home but looking forward, in both senses of the word, to the new year.

So onto my reasons this week!

I'm back onto the healthy eating plan this week (another thing which fell my the wayside) Weighed in today and have lost a brilliant 9.5 lbs!!! So pleased with myself. I know next week it will be a more modest loss, but what a great way to start back??

My kids are great at the moment. Spent time with Amy over Christmas, I'm pleased to see how happy she is and how she's coping with everything London life is throwing at her. James is knuckling down and working for his exams. He's playing hard too! But hey, you are only young once.

Am crocheting more and enjoying the results! Not only do I (hopefully) get a lovely scarf or hat at the end of it, it stops me eating! You can't crochet and eat at the same time, FACT! I'm not one to follow a pattern, find them hard to understand, but with perseverance, I am getting there. Here is my latest project, a ruffle scarf. We won't mention it looks a bit like a High Court Judge's wig!!!

I'm back at the gym, following the gammy foot episode and have decided to train for the 26 mile St Luke's Hospice Midnight Walk. I've managed the 13 miles a couple of times now, but decided the extra challenge (26 miles!! Am I mad???!) will spur me on and help with the losing weight

Don't forget to get yourself over to Michelle at Mummy from the Heart to read the other R2BC

All in all, I am a very happy bunny, long may it continue. But then if I have anything to do with it, it will. I am choosing my attitude and today's is happy and optimistic

Shopping List 2nd January

2012-01-02T16:46:00.001Z

Thought I would write up my weekly shopping list to go with my Monday Meal Planner. Maybe something I do regularly but will have to see how that goes!
I try and be frugal with my groceries and use all the fresh things up through the week. However I do have a very bad habit of buying up a lot store cupboard stuff. I think this stems from my need to keep cupboards stocked for emergencies. I remember many years ago and before I married, I had a cash flow problem. I basically had no money to eat and had to eat out of the cupboard for a couple of weeks. I nearly starved! That will never happen to me again!

Onto my list

Semi skimmed milk 12 pints (£3.48)
Full fat milk 12 pints (£3.48) We go through this much milk every week and I don't use it! It's all MrC in his coffee and James with his cereal!
Tinned marrow fat peas (£0.24)
Baked beans x 6 (£0.28 each)
Tinned tomatoes x 4 (£0.38 each)
Tinned sweetcorn (£0.48)
Tinned bean salad x 2 (£0.66 each)
Mushy peas (£0.17)
Green Lentils (tinned) (£0.54)
Decaf coffee (£2.49)
Coffee (£1.99) married to a coffeeholic
Parmesan cheese dried (£1.74)
Passata x 2 (£0.39 each)
Lean minced beef x 3 (3 for £10, one for the freezer!)
Cous cous (for the cupboard) (£0.69)
Minced garlic (£1.59)
Pasta - Conchiglioni Rigati 500g (Finest Range for the cupboard. A bit of a treat) (£1.57)
Nail polish remover (for MrC to remove paint from his lead figures...honest!) (£1.12)
Pasta 500g - more conchiglie but the regular stuff (£1.19)
Bulgar wheat (£0.89)
Bachelor's savoury rice (for emergencies) (£0.65)
Risotto rice (£1.12)
Hair conditioner (£2.15)
Loads of throw away freezer containers (for left overs)(£6.06)
Pack of crumbed ham (for the boys)(£1)
Cucumber (£0.80)
Celery (£0.83)
Mini peppers (not really needed but were on offer and look really cute!)(£1)
Organic sweet peppers (£1.50)
Pack of 3 peppers x 2 (I love them!) (£1.65 each)
Bag of mixed leaves x 2 (an extravagance but I need to eat more salad!) (£1 each)
Squash (I wanted pumpkin but they didn't have any. Already had a butternut squash in the fridge) (£1.50)
Packet of mushrooms (£1.18
Bag of small apples x 2 (I will take one to work with me for snacks) (£0.71 each)
Bag of parsnips (£0.88)
Punnet of cherry tomatoes (am going to make up a box of salad to keep in the fridge, sliced tomatoes go soggy!) (£1)
Pack of onions (£1.05)
Leek x 4 (£2)
Brown bread x 2 (£1.15 each)

Came to £69.19

I am sure if I were to shop around and get my vegetables from a grocer I could get things cheaper but for me its the convenience of getting everything in one place. It's hard enough to work full time, do all the housework and cook as much from scratch as possible without also stressing myself out shopping around. I am not super woman!
But anyway, what do you think?

Click here if you want to go back to meal planner!

Meal Planning Monday (2nd January 2012)

2012-01-02T16:08:00.000Z

Like most people at this time of year, I have decided today is the day I go back onto the Slimming World eating plan! I need to! I've put on nearly 20 lbs since I stopped following, and Christmas hasn't helped. I'm just thankful I gave my old 'fat' jeans away or I may have been tempted to carry on eating! Actually, no I wasn't tempted. This year I AM going to lose at least another 3 stone (on top of the 20 lbs which have crept on!) so I need to be committed to it.

The easiest thing for me is to meal plan and then link with Mrs M's brilliant Meal Planning Monday, to keep me on track (and makes sure I do it!) The first week I find is the hardest (all the more so because there are still too many Christmas goodies around the house) but here goes!

In no particular order we are having (because I don't cook anything different for the rest of the family)

*Butter Bean and Cumin Soup (syn free)
*Pumpkin and Butternut Squash Risotto (Think its about 4 syns, am adapting a recipe)
Spaghetti Bolognaise and salad (syn free)
Dry Fried Eggs, Beans and Slimming World Chips (syn free)
Pasta Bake and vegetables (syn free)
Cottage Pie with plenty of vegetables (syn free)
Chickpea and Red Roasted Pepper Pilaf (syn free)

* will blog the recipe once I've tried them!

Am planning on having a lot of Slimming World Super Speed Soup for lunches at work to get my first week going really well! And breakfast's will be eggs or beans on toast.

Bought a lot of throw away freezer containers for the left overs which I can then have on standby for when I don't want to cook from scratch

Have just done my weekly shop for this and it came to £69.19 which I didn't think was bad. Take a look here if you want to see the whole list!

So there you go, my first week back on plan. Check back next week and see how much I have lost and if you want some inspiration for your own meal planner, don't forget to take a look at At Home with Mrs M!

Reasons to be Cheerful #R2BC

2011-12-10T17:56:00.001Z

I know I am very late with this post, but I'd had a 'bad' week and couldn't, in good conscious, write when I really didn't feel cheerful at all!
But onwards and upwards
I am feeling back to my normal self after my melt down on Thursday. I always try and look on the bright side of things, so when I can't, it really knocks me for six. So I'm back on an even keel again now, lot more myself!

Not my bedroom, but wish it was!

The painkillers are working brilliantly, the only side effect is they make me sleepy, but as I like my bed.........

I've only got one more week at work before I finish for Christmas. Can't believe I have two and half weeks off! Not going to know what to do with myself!
And to sign off and in the hope MrC reads my blog, I've found something I'd like for Christmas. What do you think my chances are of finding it in my stocking on Christmas day??

http://www.thinkgeek.com/homeoffice/mugs/eabe/

Time is the solution

2011-12-08T19:50:00.001Z

Earlier today, I had a rant on Twitter about my #brokenbum

Rant Alert, just a warning, I am going into rant mode

I have a damaged coccyx and its been like it for over 4 months. It hurts to lie in bed and sit in a chair (my two favourite occupations)

GP today agreed to x-ray as it has been going on for so long and I am getting tired of the pain. Its just getting me down

X-ray makes me feel like we are doing something, but call from hospital and they won't x-ray. There is no point, it won't change anything

even if it is broken, there isn't a lot that can be done! WTF! In this day and age??????

I am really mad and angry, but its undirected. It isn't anyone's faults, its just the way it is. But....I'm still angry & pissed off

I'm in pain and there is fuck all I can do about it.

I'd like to say I'm calming down, but that would be a lie. Telephone consult with GP booked. Hopefully I will more accepting by then.

Today, I've had enough; was the day, the pain wore me down. Today the straw broke my back and not just the camel's. I was upset and annoyed and wanted to blame someone, caught in a cycle of negative emotion, unproductive tears. I'm in pain and discomfort and not being able to brush it off and joke anymore.

Today I couldn't see the bright side. With everything I have dealt with in the last year, with all that I have coped with over the last six years, to be told I couldn't have an x-ray was what sent me over the edge.I felt out of control, weak and vulnerable. I can't sit in a chair, drive the car, lie in my bed without feeling sore, and I'd had enough.

Today was the day I lost it

But, I took some time, time for me to think it through. Time to put things into perspective and time is what is needed. Time for those useless bunch of bones to heal and settle.

My glass half full philosophy started to do its job. At least its only sitting and laying down which hurts! I'm better off than a lot of people!

I took the time to devise a plan, to speak to my GP again as I may be like this for quite a few months yet. Request for stronger painkillers, for him to speak to colleagues and get advice on the next steps. My plan now is to take control of my environment and sort out a new chair at work and at home, to cut down on my discomfort and pain.

Today is the day I decided to stop letting my #brokenbum control me and my emotions. Today I actually found my inner strength and resolve; what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger

Dear Santa....

2011-12-05T12:40:00.001Z

I don't write to you very often, because to be honest, I'm just really happy to have everyone around me at this time of year.

But I've just seen something, which is calling to me, its fate. I can't resist.

I have been a good girl this year Santa, do you think you could see to it there is one of these in my stocking?

Click here to see

Well, I can't resist, just hope Mr C, ummmmm I mean Santa, reads my blog!

#GammyFoot

2011-12-02T08:17:00.001Z

Warning

This post contains photo's which people of a nervous disposition may find distressing (I know I did!) or if you have a fear of feet - podophobia

I mentioned on a Reasons to be Cheerful post I would write and share the photo's if people were interested......you were!

The problems with my foot started about six weeks ago. I thought it was athletes foot, which is pretty yuk at the best of the times. I treated it, but it didn't go away. In the back of my mind I was thinking 'it can't that, I need to visit the pharmacist or doctor some point soon'....but then the foot took over!

I woke up in my hotel room, the same hotel I fell and broke my bum in (that's a whole different post!) and my foot was sore. I put my shoe on and was now limping! Through the day, the pain got worse but I did the stiff upper lip thing, until I took the bull by the proverbial 'shoe' horn and took a look. It was red, sore, mouldy looking and very wet. That was it, straight to a drop in centre in Basingstoke, I was not having my foot dropping off!

The centre was brilliant, got seen by a lovely nurse practitioner, who thought it was trench foot (WTF!) I am not a World War 1 soldier in the trenches! But when I googled it, later in my hotel, it turns out it's more common than you think. You get it if your feet have been in trainers or wellies for long periods of time. Festival goers tend to get it, especially Glastonbury apparently.

The treatment is keeping feet clean and dry, so off I toddled to buy (because I'm still working away) loads of socks, talc and painkillers, because at this point I have a pronounced comedy limp!

Next day, woke expecting a miracle..........I was disappointed. Manages to get through the day and drive 3.5 hours home. When I got there though the pain was immeasurable and I'm so thankful to MrC, who helped me bathe them, assess the damage and then ring our out of hours doctor. She diagnoses a severe infection, prescribed antibiotics and codeine, which meant I got some sleep!

Since then, I've:
Visited the doctor 6 times, 2 were out of hours
Had about 3 different diagnosises
Been asked six times if I am diabetic
Been prescribed 4 separate doses of antibiotics
Endured my foot being a mass of huge painful blisters (one of which burst in the shower!)
Had to wash them 3 times a day for 10 days in magnesium permanganate which turned them brown!
Had sticky smelly feet, which oozed and squelched and generally disgusted all those around me
Walked around work in my fetching pink fluffy slippers, because they are comfortable and warm.
Applied anti-fungal creams
Changed my socks 3-4 times a day and my shoes twice a day
Applied emollients when the fungal cream dried the foot out to the point of cracking and bleeding!

I'm now onto hopefully the last diagnosis, not infected athlete's foot, not trench foot, but eczema which has become infected. This seems the most likely. Have loads of different types everywhere else, why wouldn't I now have it on my feet??

So I've decided, this is my last course of antibiotics, the steroid cream will work its magic and I will be able to let go of my comic limp. Positive thinking and all that!

WARNING - photo's of feet about to be revealed!

So for those people who like the gammy, here are the promised pictures, I did warn you! I couldn't find the one which showed the sole of my foot as one big blister, think I gotten bored by then!

Moral of the story........look after your feet, you miss them when they dont' work properly!

Recipe Shed - One pot wonders

2011-11-30T12:03:00.001Z

I love one pot wonders. Less hassle, normally easy to prepare and importantly, less washing up!

I've decided to go with an old classic which must be one of the original one pot wonders, a beef stew. This is the way my mum taught me to cook it. May not be the right way, but it tastes good in our house and brings back memories!

Beef Stew

Serves 4 - 6 (depending on dumpling, bowl and appetite size)

Ingredients (all approximate)

500g of beef stewing steak, cut into cubes (amount of meat depends on my purse strings)

couple of onions, roughly chopped

couple of carrots, thickly sliced

2 or 3 parsnips, cut into chunks

small parsnip, peeled and cut into chunks

3 or 4 large potatoes, peeled and chopped into big chunks

3 oxo cubes

couple of bay leaves

salt and pepper

In a big pan (I use the pressure cooker pan** as its the biggest one I own) I put a couple tablespoons of water with the cubed beef steak and brown. I then add the onions to soak up the flavour from the beef and to soften slightly.

The rest of the vegetables and bay leaves get added with the oxo cubes and enough water to cover completely. Lid is added to the pot and its brought to the boil and then simmered for at least 4 hours. The longer you can leave it the better. If you can cook it the day before, or give it chance to cool then reheat, you're onto a winner!

Remember to check on it regularly to stir and top up with water.

To help thicken I'll sometimes chop a potato very finely so it disintegrates and thickens in the stew as it cooks. Season to taste as you go and sorted!

We usually serve this with dumplings, which are very easy too.

4 big spoons of self raising flour (I have a special, to me, spoon I inherited from my Gran)

2 same sized spoons of suet

salt and pepper

(sometimes I add a handful of herbs or chopped garlic)

Mix until firm but still sticky with a little water and drop tablespoon sized 'pieces' into the stew, spaced regularly in the pan as they will expand (a lot) Put the lid back on and continue to cook for another 20 - 25 minutes.

Serve in a big bowl, with a crust of bread to wipe it clean!

** Maybe a thought for future recipe shed could be pressure cooking recipe, is it a dieing art?

Random stuff which makes me happy (part 2)

2011-11-29T11:50:00.001Z

I was inspired to write 'part 1' in the summer by @ImSoBlogin and her post and as I have a tendancy to let my mind wander (especially when I have a lot to do, busy at work and tight deadlines!) it wandered back to that part of my brain and decided to compile a new list

So here is my happy list part 2

Wrapping up warm in my Slanket in front of the telly
A delicious casserole, especially from the slow cooker!
The colour of the leaves
Blue skies, enjoying them while I can
The slight bite in the air of the promised cold weather
Watching Fritz run around the house in unabashed joy and excitement, barking like a loon when I get home from work
Walking through fallen leaves and kicking them up like I'm seven again
Writing to do lists
Making winter vegetable soups
Listening to the sound of rain on my bedroom window at night
Comments left on my blog
Twitter
5p off fuel voucher
Dumplings
Crossing stuff off my to do list
Christmas anticipation
Big mug of tea and a biscuit
Going to the gym
A big hug
A completed to do list
Adele albums

So, over to you! What makes you happy? Let me know by leaving a comment or maybe blogging and linking back to mine, whatever makes you happy!

Inspiration....doesn't matter the age

2011-11-26T16:56:00.001Z

My niece Penelope, is a wonderfully inquisitive, intelligent, warm and caring young girl.

My sister (@joytust if you wish to follow on Twitter, although she is more a lurker than tweeter!) shared this with me. Joy went to bed on Monday and found the following note from Penny

A wonderfully inspirational quote, especially as my sister is working, looking after the kids and completing a degree fulltime to boot!

Did I mention Penny was 7!?

Reasons to be Cheerful #R2BC

2011-11-24T20:56:00.001Z

It's Friday, so its Reasons to be Cheerful! A brilliant way to reflect back on your week and celebrate all things which are bright and beautiful
Bod for Tea is hosting this week, so get yourself over there to check it out!
I'm going to do my usual and just blast it down on paper, find its better if I don't over analyse it! Just go with the flow!
1 Tuesday, my brain was saying 'eat chips' but my will power moved my hands to make a sensible choice. Had prawn salad and a melon pot instead! Was so proud of myself! One of the first times I have actually fought and won. Very happy! (we won't mention the chocolate bar I had on the way home, the point is I won at lunch time)
2 Amy called today and the permanent contract has been granted. She took a gamble and moved to London for a zero rated hours job. You are only young once and able to take a chance like that, and it paid off. Very proud and happy Mum. She blogs too!
3 Spent the evening with a work colleague who I knew vaguely many years ago, but are now in the same team. Spent a wonderful evening, chatting and gassing, felt like we'd been working together for years.
Thank you Mark, I had a great time....and of course I will look after your admin requirements!
4 I'm seeing Amy on Sunday, business trip on Monday means we can spend some time together, putting the world to rights!
5 My bargain cardigan made me very happy. It was £30 until I went to the check-out and realised it was only £10. Result! Not only that, I went back to buy a pair of trousers, but had to take them back; they were too big in the waist! Wa Hey! Brilliant feeling.
So all in all, a great week, roll on the next! And one question for you....what's the best bargain you've every nabbed?

Meal Planning Monday w/c 21st of November

2011-11-20T21:53:00.001Z

Two weeks running I've managed to plan out menu's! Maybe the Virgo in me is back! Lost a pound this week with my Slimming World plan, lets see what I can manage this week!

I'm working away three nights (if you include Sunday) so the boys are going to have to fend for themselves. This will probably mean ice-cream, cereal or fried egg on toast. It's only 3 days out of 7, they will live.....yes, they will live?

So meals this week are:-

Cottage pie (frozen from last week) with potato and parsnip mash on the top (syn free)
Gammon & slimming world chips (Syn free) I am a little addicted to gammon at the moment!
Ranchero Pie (3 Syns) I will be blogging about it for @ReluctantHousedads #RecipeShed
Good old fashioned beef stew (Syn free if you don't have dumplings)

Made and froze 4 portions of vegetable soup this weekend, so that's my lunches covered. Plus left over roasted vegetables from today, will be a filling lunch in the morning.

Well, that's it this week, check out my post on Wednesday/Thursday if you are interested in the Ranchero Pie recipe

Plus, get yourself over to At Home with Mrs M for more meal plans!

Boring but true

2011-11-19T19:25:00.001Z

I've been tagged for this post by @kateab over from The Five F's blog and I can't complain, because I volunteered, I'm a sucker for a meme. Reading through Katie's she says

All you have to do is answer the 10 questions, tag a few people, then return to the original post and comment so that the tagger knows you have completed your mission.

On I go!

Describe yourself in seven words
Optimistic, Nice, Friendly, Loyal, Approachable, Trustworthy, Bossy!

What keeps you up at night?
That's a leading question, do I go serious or light hearted? Lets see where just going with my gut answer takes me.

If I'm feeling particularly stressed all sorts of weird and wonderful minuscule details flow into my brain unbidden. When I say minuscule, I mean stuff which doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things like, 'did I turn the dishwasher on' or 'wonder what so and so had for their tea tonight and 'what am I going to have for my tea tomorrow'

I'm of the glass half full school and think what's the point of worrying about the things you can't change or have influence over. But stress does things to a person and you end up acting in ways you don't like. So my answer has got to be all sorts of shit I shouldn't be worry about at 4 in the morning.

Who would I like to be?
I like me, I like who I am. I don't want to be anyone else

What are you wearing now?
Black trousers, black long sleeved t-shirt, sleeveless long black cardigan, blue chunky necklace and pink socks with dogs on them (I couldn't find my sensible socks this morning!) pink fluffy slippers (its cold!) What does this say about me I wonder?

What scares me?
The dark, and lack of control

What is the best and worst things of blogging?
I started this blog when I was diagnosed with cancer and used it through the hysterectomy to get my feelings and thoughts into a semblance of order. The best thing about blogging is sharing how I feel about things which are bothering me and getting support from virtual friends.

I have to be totally honest about my feelings, or else what would be the point. Which leads onto the worst things about blogging. Sometimes what I write will be read by my family and I don't always think about the impact on them. I have never written anything I wouldn't say to my family and it's never anything detrimental or private about them. But sharing your feelings will affect your family, especially if they didn't know you felt that way.

For example I recently wrote 'What I saw and Heard' and my sister rang me a couple of days after posting concerned about me. I was fine, I'd written it out, sorted things in my head and felt better but I had caused her to be worried about me, and I don't like that.

What was the last website you looked at?
It would be thesaurus.com, it helps me when I'm blogging and stuck on a word! Boring, but true.

If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
I'd like to change my size, which technically I am doing (4 stone so far) but if I got a wish that would be it, because it would be instant with no hard work! Mind you, was it once said if something is worth having, its worth working for? If it's not been said, I am having that quote!

Slankets, yes or no?
Oh my god, yes!

Tell us something about the person who tagged you.
I've never 'physically' met @kateab, however we 'virtually' met through twitter. Her blog is brilliant, with for me the right mix of reviews, thoughts and what I call on mine general ramblings. She isn't afraid to say what she thinks and doesn't go with what everyone else thinks or does. I like that. A lot.

Now onward to tag a few people. These guys didn't run away fast enough and I caught them!

@Littlelightwork because he is a new follower and his blog fascinates me!
@breenster because I don't think he will, but would love it if he would
@amumonamission because she volunteered! (love you!)
@comedinewithrach because I like her tweets!
@ovenuovenvalet because she is a wonderful person and says yes to most things
@daveboyfry because I asked him!

Recipe Shed - Slow cooker or casseroles

2011-11-19T18:04:00.001Z

My slow cooker was dusted down and brought out from the back of the cupboard when I started Slimming World and I really have no idea why it was put there in the first place. I think its ideal for busy people who want to eat well, but without the fuss of preparing a meal at the end of the day. Okay, you've got to be organised and disciplined to plan that far ahead when the average cooking time is 8 hours, but the results are worth it.

Maybe its because we don't know what to cook? I know I just used to chuck a few ingredients in and see what happened, sometimes it worked, mostly it didn't. But I invested £5 on slow cooker recipe book and it gave me the confidence to try all sorts of different things, sweet and savoury, although I stay away from the sweet stuff now!

Anyway, here is one of my favourites from 200 Slow Cooker Recipes from Hamlyn and it's works out at about 3 Syns a portion

Rancheros Pie

Takes about 20 minutes to prepare and 8 - 10 hours to cook

Serves 4

Ingredients

Low cal spray

500g of lean minced beef

1 chopped onion

2 garlic cloves, finely chopped

1 teaspoon if cumin seeds, crushed

1/4 to 1/2 teaspoon of crushed dried chillies

1/4 teaspoon of ground allspice

2 stems of oregano roughly chopped (I used a teaspoon of dried)

3 tablespoons of sultana's

tin of chopped tomatoes

2 beef stock cubes

8 fl oz of water

500 g of thinly sliced sweet potato

Spray a large frying pan with low cal spray and add the beef to brown, pour away any of the fat. Add the onions and continue to cook for a minute or two. Add all the other ingredients apart from the sweet potato and bring it to the boil stirring. Add salt and pepper to taste.

Spoon it into the slow cooker and cover with overlapping slices of sweet potato. Spray with the low cal spray, salt and pepper and sprinkle with some dried chillies.

Put the lid on and cook for 8 - 10 hours, until the potato is soft. It's the potato which takes the time! It can be browned under the grill if you want to.

I serve this with broccoli, carrots and cabbage and it's delicious!

Websites I Visit The Most

2011-11-19T15:43:00.001Z

The wonderful @TheBoyAndMe tagged me in this meme which was originally started by Mummy Musings. I love these type of meme's, because they are easy! How difficult can it be to talk about yourself? And, come on, lets be honest we all love to have a blog discussion with I in the title!

I was going to be all scientific (the Virgo in me) and check my Internet history, but realised because I browse on so many different devices (MrC's computer, my iPad and iPhone and work laptop) plus just upgraded to iPad 2, it was going to be very difficult! So decided to just go with my gut.

- Twitter http://www.twitter.com/
I am addicted to it, I miss it when I don't get chance to take a peek through the day and add my tuppence ha'penny to the stream. It makes me laugh, it makes me cry, I find stuff out, it intrigues and entertains me. I've made new friends and connections, it inspires and keeps me going on the bad days. I'm @FayC if you want to follow!

- Gmail or Googlemail
When I got my iPhone, I decided to change my e-mail and gmail seemed to be the easiest one to get up and running. I check it most days and it keeps me up to date with blogs, twitter mentions and DM's, blogs I subscribe to. Not to mention the offers of two for one pizza's!

- IMDB http://www.imdb.com/
Been using this site for film information for what seems forever. If I'm watching a TV programme or film and the name of the actor is on the tip of my tongue or I think I've seen him/her in something else, this site is my go to. I can rarely get through a film without checking it out for something!

You can search by actor, film or TV programme, character name, director etc. Everything is crossed referenced, can see what else the actor's been in, their biography, trivia etc. Also has reviews of the films and where they were on location. You can see where I am going with this, keeps me amused for hours!

- Thesaurus.com
I use e-mail a lot at work, I write a lot of stuff for various things, plus I enjoy blogging. At times I get stuck for a word, or have used it too often in a paragraph and need a substitute. There aren't that many people physically sat in my work office and MrC sometimes just wants some peace and quiet. So instead of bouncing my word dilemma around them, I use the site. It really does work, giving me alternatives, but often it also helps me use words in a different way. Plus there's a handy tab at the top which takes you to it's sister site, Dictionary.com!

- Google
I know there are lots of different search engines out there, but this is my search engine of choice. I find it easy to use and I use it ....a lot! If I hear or read something and it piques my interest, I'm off learning a bit more about it. This leads me off to read articles on other subjects. It's just so effortless to get lost in the subject, clicking links, reading and learning, absorbing information, sifting through and deciding if I believe it or if it fits in with my belief systems. There is a lot of crap on the Internet, but its fun when you find the good stuff too!

So that's my list of five, just realised they are linked with a common theme, finding out information. Now what does that say about me!

If you want to be tagged, let me know and I'll add you on. And I apologise now for people on my list below, I've added without asking, feel free to ignore/delete if you wish, I won't be offended!

Reasons to be Cheerful

2011-11-18T09:19:00.001Z

It's been a while, not that I haven't been cheerful, just the celebrating and recording it. But think its time to give it another go. Don't they say (whoever they are?!) if you want something to happen, write it down, a bit like a self fulfilling prophecy. And from Michelle's site she's writes we feel better when we ooze positivity and set ourselves up for the next week.

My week didn't start too well, with this 'What I saw and heard' but I'm not one for letting things get me down for long, so here goes;

1 My #gammyfoot is getting better, can see light at the end of the tunnel. I've been suffering with an infection for over a month, am on my third batch of antibiotics (which need to be taken on an empty stomach! How hard is that! See my weighty battle posts for info!!!!) However, I have a treatment plan, I know what the next steps will be and feel more in control. And just to warn you, I am thinking about blogging about it, WITH PICTURES! I love a bit of gore! You'll be fine about that ....won't you?

2 Again, another health one, my #brokenbum or coccyx is still causing me considerable pain. However, again, I have a treatment plan, which although it doesn't take the pain away, it makes me mentally feel prepared and in control. I fell in the bath over three months ago and although it doesn't stop me from moving around and doing things, it does stop me from sitting down and relaxing (one of my favourite pass times!)

The plan is to give it another month, with plenty of painkillers, give it more time to heal, and then x-rays to see whats going on. Not much of a plan, but amazing how something simple like this has made a difference.

3 Maybe not one for me per se, but goodness, makes me feel really warm and happy inside. Amy has found somewhere permanent to live, no more sofa surfing in that there London. She's sharing a flat with a couple in Canada Water, not far from where she works. She seems more settled and happier. With her new address, will come more opportunities to build a circle of friends and support, so things are coming together. The more settled she is, the happier I am!

So there you go, my reasons! Why not have a go yourself and leave a comment. No matter how crappy your week has been, there is always something, some small scrap of light and colour to grab onto in these cold and dark evenings, to keep yourself together and looking forward.

Meal Planning Monday...but on Tuesday

2011-11-14T21:03:00.001Z

It's Tuesday, so its Meal Planning Monday. Errr....maybe not! Been a while since I've joined in, been a while since I've followed the Slimming World eating plan. Lots of reason, some good, some not so good! But no point beating myself up about it.

It's time to pick myself up and start the planning again. So here's to it

Monday was Chilli Con Carne (syn free) and left overs are for lunch!

The rest of the week in no particular order
Slow cooker gammon with stir fry vegetables & rice (syn free)
Gammon in creamy sauce, pasta and green salad (2 syns for the sauce)
Fish, slimming world chips and mushy peas (6 syns for the processed fish, frozen portion)
Homemade burger in a roll, spicy wedges and coleslaw (2 syns with roll as HE)
Roast chicken, *roasted vegetable and gravy (2 syns for the gravy)
Cottage pie and vegetables (syn free)

So that will be my week! Wish me luck, I am going to need it.....

* left over vegetables will be made into a filling soup, portioned and frozen for lunches

Get yourself over to At Home with Mrs M and get your fill of other more dedicated meal planners (more dedicated than me I mean!) for more inspiration!

What I saw and heard......

2011-11-14T19:35:00.001Z

Don't know what's come over me today, I've been welling up and crying (maybe even sobbing...) at the most ridiculous things!

For example the John Lewis Christmas advert was first, then (weirdly!) listening to Tim Minchin singing 'White Wine in the Sun' on the Scott Mills radio show on the way home.

And don't get me started on The One Show, watching Mat Baker sob his heart out halfway through today's leg of his 'Rickshaw Challenge'

If I didn't know better I would have said I was hormonal, but as the important originators of those pesky things were removed at the same time as my uterus earlier in the year, it can't be that (I 'heart' HRT)

But who am I kidding, I know exactly why I'm crying at the drop of hat. It's got something to do with finding Mr C collapsed on the kitchen floor yesterday morning. It's got something to do with ringing 999, acting calm and collected, while I made him comfortable, locked away Fritz the dog and getting his medication together all the time thinking 'this is the worse I have ever seen him for a long time'

It's awful to say that we're all used to Mr C being ill, used to emergency admissions, which makes the unusual for most, common place for us. He had though, become very ill extremely quickly and even in A&E with pain medication administered, he didn't bounce back as usual. It was heart wrenching to see him in so much pain, obviously distressed, with a rising temperature and the imminent signs of peritonitis. You see I've seen this before, six years ago, when I was told his next 24 hours were crucial.

But I did my usual thing and planted the reassuring and calm face in place, with my painted on smile and soothing words. So maybe my tears today and obvious emotional over load is a delayed reaction to what I saw but maybe also to what I heard.

Let's face it, no-one is in A&E through choice.

The standard issue paper curtains don't protect anyone's privacy; don't stop you hearing about an 85 year old woman, who lives alone, found by her carer after taking a paracetamol overdose.

They don't stop you being drawn to the cheerful and charismatic voice of an elderly man. He sounded so together and calm, unflappable and accepting. However as he goes on to describe to the nurse, he's the only carer for his 92 year old wife, who suffers from dementia. His beloved wife who is now, home alone and unable to feed herself or even turn the TV over, until he returns after having treatment for a broken wrist following a fall. My calm mask nearly slipped when he was told he might not be home that night, he may need an operation to reset the bones.

So I think, I'm allowing myself to be a little self indulgent today. I managed to be stoic, dependable and unflappable when it was important. Today I can be flighty, jittery and unpredictable and get it out of my system!

I'm thankful to everything which is good in this world, he is okay now. He did respond to treatment and is now at home smiling and working towards getting back to his old self.

I'm thankful we are not alone, that we've family and friends who are always there for us.

But also in the spirit of this blog, I'm choosing to reminder the highlights; Of nearly handing over Fritz's ear medication to the paramedics collating Mr C's prescription drugs (I'd never have lived that one down)

Of Fritz thinking Mr C being on the floor was his cue to play!

Of spending the day in the same clothes as the day before (right down to the underwear) because I didn't have time to find clean. Even worse, not brushing my teeth! (never has a shower felt quite so refreshing!) You gotta laugh.....

And the icing on the cake? As we were walking out of the hospital overhearing a suspected visitor walking in saying 'the only trouble with this place is there are too many sick people' (and he wasn't joking!)

I wasn't the only one to giggle at that one!

Reasons to be Cheerful

2011-10-13T16:07:00.001+01:00

What a week!

I had the best ever one to one session with my new manager. I came away energised, full of ideas, feeling enabled, valued and excited for the future. Long may it continue!

I'm on holiday this week and have come away with MrC for a few days, something I didn't think he would enjoy. MrC's idea of a holiday is to go visiting places, rushing off from one activity to another. However his illness means he doesn't always have the energy to do that.

For the last couple of years I have been trying to persuade him to try something quieter and lower his expectations. He finally agreed and the holiday has been a complete success. I booked three nights at a cottage in a place called Chapel Amble It is beautiful, quiet and just what I needed. We took things to do in the cottage and have gone out for an hour or so each day.

Okay, we haven't done very much and have watched a lot of TV but we've gotten away from the everyday pressures and stresses and spend time alone together. I feel so relaxed and am already planning a week away in February!

And lastly, the plans to move Amy to London are moving along really well! She is staying with friends for a couple of weeks while she searches for a place of her own. Maybe only having just over a week to get her sorted has worked out in our favour, less time to worry!

We are having cocktails (lots of) on Friday night and I am driving her to London on Sunday morning, so a busy weekend for us all! The last few days away were well needed!

She also took my advice and has started to blog about how she feels about the move. Marvellous Adventures of a Devon Girl so please show some support. I am going to miss her so much but think that will be another blog post!

So that was my week, how was yours? Any advice for Amy on how to survive living and working in London?

Don't forget to get yourself over to Michelle's Mummy from the Heart and show your love for other people's Reason to be Cheeful!

Photo's this week were from a visit to Truro Catherdral, a beautiful calming space

Life Circle - Week 2

2011-10-13T15:20:00.001+01:00

So here I am, week 2, giving Kate's Life Circle a go. Have a look here to see the background.

Last week's post had me looking at my Wheel of Life to identify areas which I felt need some work.

This week Kate has asked us to describe how we see our lives in five years, two years, one year and six months. I am not sure if my head is in the best place for this. I am on holiday this week and am just enjoying the moment. Am going to bash this out and see what happens, not too much thinking or editing, lets see what my brain comes up with!

Five Years
I am probably living where I am but the house is beautiful, clean and tidy! All the DIY jobs are done, every room is decorated and its easy to keep it that way, because the kids have moved out! It means we have two 'spare' rooms. One which I'm using as a hobby room/office and the other is a proper spare room, available for the kids to pop back or for friends to come and stay.

I have more time to do the things I want to do, rather than cleaning and tidying! So I'm spending time taking photo's and then using PhotoShop instead of getting MrC to do it for me.

I'm slim and feel healthy and full of energy. I'm doing a worthwhile job I enjoy and love getting up in the mornings to go into work. I am successful and feel fulfilled.

Time is what I have in abundance, time to do all the things I want to do without compromising on the things which have to be done.

Two Years
The house is clean and tidy and the last of the DIY projects have been completed. I am using the yearly bonus money to pay for someone to come in and finish the decorating.

Amy is loving it in London and has just moved into her own flat. James is just going into his second year at University and although the first year was a struggle he has found his focus and can see where he wants to be in life.

I'm going to evening classes to learn how to take great photo's and also how to use PhotoShop to enhance them. I have just been promoted and although things are hard at work, I am loving the extra responsibility. The money comes in handy too! I've reached my goal weight and my family are so proud of me.

One Year
Been a great year at work, and my new boss is pleased with the progress I have made and the changes and initiatives I've implemented. I am starting to look around for the next challenge at work.

James is off to University, so me and MrC have more time to ourselves. The house although not completed is getting there. I am busy but can see real progress in the goals I have set. I feel in control and my life has a purpose. My weight loss is steady and achievable and I feel fabulous

Six Months
It's March and my weight loss is finally going in the right direction. It isn't going up and down, its small regular losses each week and it is sustainable. Half a pound a week is how I want it to progress.

I'm working well with my new boss and she can see I have potential and is coaching me, something I have never had before. I'm learning new things all the time and not just through attending courses. I have volunteered for projects and come into contact with new people and new ways of doing things.

There is a clear plan in place for each of the DIY projects!

I have a plan of what I want to achieve and by when, it is written down and has bullet points and everything! So it must be real!!!!

I am taking control back and am being responsible for my future. I am saying where life is going to lead me and not the other way around.

Well, there you have it, my five year plan. Bit scary! And even though I have just banged it out, it seems to make sense.

What do you think?

Meal Planning Monday w/c 10th October

2011-10-10T08:00:00.000+01:00

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It's Monday so its meal planning with At Home With Mrs M, my chance to get sorted and start the week as I mean to go on, organised!

Last week's Singapore Vermicelli was delicious! And as promised the recipe can be found here. I didn't get to the sushi, but will very soon.

This week's plan comes to you courtesy (in part) to Amy, my 22 year old daughter who will be in charge of the house and James (my 18 year old son) while I'm away with MrC staying in a little cottage in deepest darkest Cornwall. We leave on Tuesday for 3 nights, so not too long for all hell to break loose (but you never know!)

So this weeks plan will be:-
Monday - Spinach Cannelloni (didn't get made last week!)
Tuesday - The biggest batch of chilli con carne and tiger bread (A proper student staple)
Wednesday - Left over chilli with rice (A student favourite)
Thursday - something which looks like bolognaise from the freezer (didn't know it was in there!)
Friday - Night out (Amy's leaving do!)
Saturday - Homemade burgers and chips
Sunday - No idea!!!

So planned but not very Slimming World. Amy's leaving do, to celebrate her getting a job in London will involve a lot of cocktails and Sunday will be a meal on the road followed by lots of tears as I drop her off somewhere in London to start the job on Monday.

So, I have a feeling the two pounds I lost this week (now just 1 pound shy of the elusive 4 stones) may be put back on! But hey ho, that's the way it goes and its not very often your daughter moves from home properly!

Check back next week to see how much I do actually put on! And don't forget to look at some other meal planners for inspiration!

Slimming World Singapore Vermicelli

2011-10-09T17:03:00.001+01:00

I saw this recipe in Slimming World magazine July 2011 (page 69) it looked delicious, and it was! A one pot meal, which I love, but I did find it a little bit fiddly, with heating this, then set it aside type instructions. But saying that, it was worth it!

Ingredients
7oz/198g dried rice vermicelli noodles
1 cal spray
5oz/142g pork steaks, all fat removed and cut into thin strips
5oz/142g raw,peeled prawns
3 garlic cloves, crushed
1in/2.5 cm fresh root ginger, finely grated
1 onion, thinly sliced
6 spring onions cut into 1in/2.5cm pieces
300g pack of stir fry vegetables
1 tbsp curry powder
6 tbsp dark soy sauce
salt and pepper
4 beaten eggs
2 red chillies, deseeded and chopped
2 limes, quatered

Syn free!

Cook the noodles, following the packet instructions. Spray a large frying pan with 1 cal spray and fry the pork on a high heat for 4-5 minutes until cooked. Transfer to a plate and keep warm

Add the prawns to the pan and fry for 2-3 minutes and then transfer to the plate with the pork. Rinse out the pan and dry.

Spray again with the 1 cal spray and over a medium heat, fry the garlic and ginger for about a minute, then stir in the onion, spring onion and stir fry vegetables and cook until softened. Add the curry powder and carry on cooking for another minute then add 2 tbsp of water and the noodles and mix together. Add the soy sauce, salt and pepper and stir fry for another minute.

Push, the vegetables to one side and pour the eggs in to scramble, then mix with the vegetables and noodles. Add the pork and prawns and mix again. Garnish with the chillies and serve with the limes to be squeezed over. The limes really lift the flavour

Apologies for the picture, took it from the magazine. We'd eaten ours before I remembered!

It was a very quick and tasty meal and once I have fully mastered it, I think it would make a brilliant dinner party meal!

Go on, give it a go!

Reasons to be Cheerful #R2BC

2011-10-08T10:15:00.001+01:00

I'm very pleased to be posting and linking again to Michelle's Mummy from the Heart Reasons to be Cheeful. It's where a group of people take a look back at their week and take time to celebrate and record things which have made them cheerful, no matter how insignificant.

It's Saturday and therefore I'm on holiday! Hoorah! I really feel I need it! I know it was really only 5 weeks since I had a long weekend, but my batteries need recharging. And this time I am going away with Mr C which is extra special.
We don't have a lot of time alone together to just enjoy each other's company. There is always something to be done, or someone else around, so four days off just us will be amazing, a real treat and something we deserve.

As regular readers of this blog or followers in Twitter may know, I was recently put at risk of redundancy and had to apply for a role to stay at the company. I found out I was successful several weeks ago (or this would be a whole other post!) but hadn't asked for feedback on how the interview went. I'm just not brave enough. I thought 'I must have been good enough to get a job I don't want to know the rest!'
But I've been mulling things over (probably as a result of joining with Kate's The Five F's Life Circle) and thought it would be a wasted opportunity to not get some feedback on how I actually did and find out areas I could improve in.
I'm not very good at asking for feedback, not because I don't think I have areas to improve on, but because I can't bear to think someone doesn't like me. I have need issues! What can I say? I know its irrational, I can be good at my job without someone having to like me, but what can I say? It's me, it's who I am. I'm sure dear reader I'm not alone....oh god, please say you agree with me. I can feel the panic rising!
Yesterday was F day ie 'feedback day' And ......they like me! Phew! I didn't break down in tears or anything, which is a result! (another habit I have! I must be a nightmare to manage Sorry @breenster, my old manager. I haven't broken down with my new boss yet, but there is always time!) The feedback was positive and constructive and not a surprise which is an added bonus. I think I'm emotionally intelligent enough now to know myself, something I wish I'd had at 20! There was one surprising thing though, maybe sometime's I'm too helpful. In my book is there such a thing? Or am I too nice (another of my posts) What do you think?

And now I have been saving the best still last! I recently had Amy's Graduation as a Reason to be Cheerful and she is featuring again.
She has gotten a job! And is moving to London! On the 16th of October! Just over a week away.......OMG! My baby is really growing up
She had been struggling to get past the first stage of the interview process as a lot of companies needed someone with experience. As a a recent graduate, she had no experience and was finding it difficult to break through!
But she has done it!
I am busting with pride and have a whole raft of emotions running through me even as I type. She only got the news on Tuesday and there is so much to do, finding somewhere to live for a start! (let alone process those said emotions!)
It's going to be hard for her, the pay isn't very good, but it's the bottom rung of an industry she wants to be in, using her Toxicology degree for a company she was desperate to work for. What more could a recent graduate ever ask for!

So a brilliant week for me, but then I can always find something which has made me smile or a lesson learnt, no matter how bleak. But please take the time to have a look and maybe leave a comment on some other posts at Michelle's for some other Reasons to be Cheerful.

PS and the significance of the pictures? They're ones I took on a solitary walk around my home town of Plymouth and The Hoe in particular. I love living here, another reason to be cheerful

Meal Planning Monday w/c 3rd of October

2011-10-03T13:30:00.000+01:00

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Another meal planner (the week goes so fast!) but this one was difficult to do. What on earth was the weather going to be doing over the next few days? Should I let that decide what I cook or just go like I normally do with what I fancy?

I went with what I fancy! Although I did let the family pick a couple of meals!

Very disappointed with NO weight loss this week! Have been doing some thinking about why. I know I've each week had a day where I've eaten off plan for a meal. But I've done this other times before and been fine. Plus I upped my exercise, been going to the gym everyday, so maybe I've more muscle?? Either way going to have to get a plan in place soon to get that weight moving again. I seem to have been around this weight for weeks just moving up and down!

Onto my meal planner (this week is going to be a challenge because I am in London one day and Bristol another, so having to rely on the family doing some cooking)

In no particular order, but rather led by the complexity of cooking for when I'm not there I have planned:-

Meatballs and spaghetti (syn free)
Egg and slimming world chips (syn free)
Spinach and mushroom canelloni (syn free if you use the cheese as your healthy extra)
Cottage Pie and vegetables (syn free)
Roast chicken, potatoes and vegetables (syn free)
Homemade burger, wedges and chilli jam relish (syn free)
Singapore vermicelli (syn free)

The last dish on the list, singapore vermicelli is a first try from the Slimming World magazine July edition. Will let you know how we get on (Amy is cooking this one!) and if its a winner I'll blog it.

We're also giving sushi a go! I've been out and bought all the stuff for it, so Amy and I will have lots of fun (and maybe some swearing!!) Photo's may follow, depending on the results!

So there you go, the glass half full meal planner for this week. Don't forget to get over to At Home With Mrs M for some more inspiration

Silent Sunday

2011-10-02T11:11:00.001+01:00

Reasons to be Cheerful

2011-09-30T15:13:00.000+01:00

Another week, another round up of my reasons to be cheerful from Michelle at Mummy From The Heart She is having a fabulous end to the week! Go over and take a look plus all the other people linking up.

Only another week before I go on holiday with Mr C! Just me and him for 3 nights in a cottage. Was thinking about inviting some friends to stay over one of the nights, but changed my mind. We don't get to spend enough time, just us. When we met, I already had Amy, so we've never never been together, just the two of us. So time for ourselves needs to be protected and treasured.

I've committed to myself to a new weekly themed blog called Life Circle from Kate of Five F's Blog My first week was very thought provoking. The way Kate described it was:

You decide what needs changing, make those changes, and then review, decide what needs changing, and so on. Repeating the process helps you to review your progress. But also, I want this to be a process where people support each other, challenging, encouraging and commenting on each other's posts. One big circle of friends, helping each other along their respective roads.

Why don't you pop over and take a look?

And lastly..because for once I am really struggling....I have had to do some real glass half full thinking today. I've been going to the gym regularly and actually upped the frequency this week, including a reasonable week folllowing Slimming World (I won't mention the KFC I had on Friday night! It was just chicken and chips and I went straight back to plan for the rest of the week!) I was expected a loss when I weighed.

Slightly annoyed when I didn't! Nothing. I maintained! All that work and nothing to show for it.

But I have turned it around in my head. I am exercising more, so maybe I have lost inches and converted some of the weight from fat to muscle. Also, I have the last two weeks, added a patch to my HRT regime. I've been told most HRT's can result in some weight gain.

So where is this glass half full thinking I hear you ask? Well, if I hadn't worked out so hard this week, I would probably have put on! And just think if I wasn't on a diet? I would be the size of a small house by now with the effect of the HRT!

I am therefore counting myself lucky to have maintained and am sure my hart work will pay off next week.

Just got to keep away from the takeaways tonight!

Recipe Shed - Five ingredients or less

2011-09-29T08:47:00.000+01:00

I think I can manage this one! A recipe with five ingredients or less? Got to be an easy one to link up with @relunctanthousedad Recipe Shed. I really wanted to do a savoury dish, but all that kept running through my mind were the delicious Slimming World puddings! So have gone with that!

Orange Mousse - 1 Syn per serving

Ingredients

2 Oranges

Sugar free orange jelly sachet

3 egg whites

300g of fat free fromage frais or greek yogurt

Serves 4 (or just me, so then it's 4 syns per serving! lol) ....I'm greedy!

Grate the zest from the oranges, then peel and chop them up. Make up the jelly but only use about 200ml of hot water. Once dissolved add in half the orange zest and leave it to cool for a bit, but not set.

When cooled put the jelly in a food processor with 200g fromage frais or greek yogurt and the orange pieces and blend until the orange is in small pieces. Transfer to a bowl and chill for about 15 minutes until the mixture begins to thicken up.

Whisk the egg whites until they form soft peaks, then fold into the mix and chill for about an hour (longer if you have it) Serve decorated with the remaining fromage frais and orange zest.

I have made this in the past with lemon's and limes, just as delicious. (just change the jelly flavour to suit) So easy and really does help with any sweet cravings. I did however add a little bit of sweetner to the lime one, as it was bit too tart for my taste

Don't forget to get over and check out some more super easy recipes at the Recipe Shed

Update
As I was publishing this, I suddenly thought I could have done the Slimming World Scotch eggs! Darn!!!! I am sure I can shoehorn that in another week!

Life Circle - Week 1

2011-09-27T21:10:00.000+01:00

So here I am, week 1, giving Kate's Life Circle a go. Have a look here to see the background. Am sure over the coming weeks I'll get more confident in what I am doing, writing and sharing, so apologise now if this first post feels a bit stilted. I know I need to do more things like this, more things to examine me, my life and everything around it. Knowing and doing though are two very different things!

And what is worse, I work in Talent & Development and have done for the past eight years. But I think its a bit like a builders house which always needs loads doing to it, my house needs some work too!

So onto the first task which was to look at the Wheel of Life, score myself in each major area and then blog the results.

This is how my Wheel of Life looks

A bit....I think the technical term is .......wonky!

Health - 9

May seem an odd score, after the last few months, but that's exactly why I gave it that number! Anyone who reads my blog can see I am working hard on improving my diet and fitness levels. I've lost 4 stones, successfully undertaken a 13 mile sponsored walk and joined a gym. Things are good in this area of my life!

Finance - 8

Don't get me wrong, we could always do with more of the green stuff, who can't? But we manage to do pretty much what we want to do. Okay, there are no luxury foreign holidays (actually very few holidays) and the car is over eight years old and won't be replaced for a couple more. But no-one goes hungry, no-one is cold or dirty and we get a few treats every so often. I'm happy!

Environment - 8

Now I took this to mean my home. Again, I'm happy. It's definitely not a show home and I have lost count of the number of DIY projects Mr C has on the go. A couple of the bigger ones are:

living room with half completed vivarium (18 months)
hall way with no wall under the stairs as its waiting to be put back up (over a year)
fitted mirrored wardrobe doors being replaced (3 months)

But its these things which make it a home! It's no point complaining about them, they'll be fixed when they can and when money allows. There are no leaks, things are reasonably clean and tidy and the house is warm. But most of all its home and I feel safe.

Friends & Family - 8

I am blessed with my family, we all get on! My brother has emigrated to New Zealand and although I don't speak to him very often, facebook is good for catching up and he is never far from my thoughts.

My sister, my best friend, lives in Kent with her family, a good five hour drive from each other. But that's what telephone's were invented for! And I get to see my parents at least once a week, they live 10 minutes away! What more could a girl wish for?

Friends? I don't get to see them as often as I would like, but they are always there for me and visa versa.

Romance - 8

I've been married for nearly 19 years. I'm not saying all those years have been happy, but we are in a good phase at the moment! (come on ladies, you know what I mean!) Marriage needs to be worked at, it needs to be nurtured and cherished. There will always be rough patches, its how you ride through them which makes the difference.

Fun - 6

I've gotten into a bit of a rut. I enjoy my life, I do the things I would like to do but I'm not necessarily trying new things. I don't go out to party's or evenings out like I used to, but do I really need to? I don't know, maybe something to work on.

Career - 6

I've got a job I love, with a company I love. I'm good at it, but sometimes don't feel appreciated.

I live by the adage, if you don't like it, its up to you to do something about it. Whenever a job hasn't given me what I need, I've either changed it or done everything in my power to get what I needed whether that was volunteering for extra responsibility or going for promotions! You spend too much time at work to be doing stuff you don't enjoy. I think I 'm getting nearer to the point I need to something about it.

Personal Development - 4

Now this is an area I need to work at! Last year I said I was going to join a evening class and learn to do something new. Did I? I want to learn how to use photoshop. Have I? I want to take up my CIPD again. Have I?

What's stopping me? I could say it was time, I could say it was money, but they wouldn't be the real reason. The real reason is me. I need a kick start (literally!) a something....... I've just not worked out what that something will be yet!

And like all good things, we've come full circle and back to why I'm eager to be part of Kate's Life Circle. I want to join things up, smooth out the bumps! Only I can do that, sometimes though you need a little help from your friends, especially if they are virtual ones.

Meal Planning Monday w/c 26th of September

2011-09-25T14:43:00.001+01:00

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Here I am writing this on Sunday while I complete the online shop at the same time! Works beautifully for me although I do sort of object to the delivery fee, but £3.50 has got to be worth the time it saves!

I've checked my freezer which is full to bursting, so don't think we'll be trying anything new this week. Just old favourites to use up what's in there!

I managed to lose a pound this week on Slimming World, despite a very off plan lunch for Amy's graduation, which I thoroughly enjoyed. Plus I won't mention the KFC I had on Friday, because that was after weigh in so won't count until next week!

Onto this week's menu, which I'm hoping will keep me on track

Frozen breaded fish, slimming world chips and mushy peas (About 7 syns)
Beef Stew and dumplings (free if I don't have the dumplings! Will try and be good!)
Chili con carne and rice which MrC is going to cook (Syn free and super good as he will be using quorn and loads of veg)
Baked potato, beans and cheese (Syn free as the cheese will be my HE)
Chicken pieces with roasted Mediterranean veg and garlic (Syn free as the chicken will be skinless)
Hot Dog sausages and spicy wedges (3 syns per sausage)

I think its a rounded menu, with a bit of everything, plus its easy to cook and no excuse for cheating! Don't forget to get yourself over to At Home With Mrs M to check out and get some inspiration from other menu planners.

Silent Sunday

2011-09-25T09:40:00.001+01:00

Reasons to be Cheerful #R2BC

2011-09-22T20:50:00.000+01:00

Hooray! I'm back and loving it! I've felt like there's been a big hole in my week as I just physically haven't had the time to blog very much. Work has been stupid busy, home life has needed some attention and blogging just needed to take a back seat. There are only so many hours in the day.

But I'm here and am going to enjoy #R2BC while I can! It's a chance to look back and your week and celebrate the great things, no matter how inconsequential they may be. If you try hard you can always fine something to be cheerful about!

This week, Michelle's Reason to be Cheerful is being hosted this week by Mum of All Trades, so don't forget to get yourself over there and take a look! She is doing Michelle proud!

Onto my week..or so (I'm planning to cheat & extend it a bit)

1. It was my wonderful daughter's graduation ceremony on Monday, which was held on Plymouth Hoe, which is a pretty amazing place at the best of times.

Plymouth University had a marquee erected right up on the promenade, the views were spectacular even if the weather wasn't. Nothing could dampen the emotion I felt as Amy stepped forward to accept her certificate, three years,more if you include A levels, of work rewarded with a 2:1

At just five foot, she looked like she should have been attending Hogwarts not Uni! But she stood tall and proud for the rest of day!

The ceremony was moving, beautiful and it ran so smoothly, was a credit to the organisers. Mr C managed to stay for the whole of it, however couldn't make the lunch as he felt too ill. But the rest of us managed to ...umm.... soldier on and enjoy the celebration!

Well Done Amy!

2. I've finally got it, watch out though, it may be catching. What am I talking about? I think I've got the gym/exercising bug! I joined just before my birthday at the beginning of the month. Since I had a programme put together by one of the fitness instructors, I can't wait to go back each time.

Annie was lovely and put me at ease. She's given me a 45 to 55 minute cardio workout which will be revisited in a month. I've managed to go every other day since then and can see an improvement in my fitness and/or ability to complete it each time. When I first went to the gym I lasted a miserable 30 seconds on the cross trainer. In less than 3 weeks I'm up to 8 minutes and feel like I could do more.

And don't get me started on the treadmill. Annie gave me the confidence to try .....wait for it .....to actually run! And although its not my favourite exercise I am now up to 14 minutes, alternating between running and walking.

For someone who had a hysterectomy in April, was four stone heavier at the beginning of the year and had never been in a gym before, its miraculous. Even more so that I am loving it!

Holly Cottage at www.theoldehouse.co.uk

3. I went on a girlie holiday! Managed to get away for 3 whole nights, away from everything and stayed in a little cottage with my Mum and Amy in Cornwall.

Petting zoo goat at the holiday cottage, handsome, yes?

We had a wonderful time, met some strange characters

And someone just had to sit on the train at The Eden Project (did I mention she is 22???)

4. And lastly, I was introduced to Jamie Edward's Daily 8. I've had the privilege of meeting Jamie through work and keep in touch via twitter (he is @JamieEdwards)

This exercise is an amazing way to end your day. It's going to be easier if you go and take a look yourself and learn about it from the master!

Life is good, especially if you decide it will be!

See you all next week! (I promise!)

Meal Planning Monday - w/c 19th September

2011-09-19T16:57:00.000+01:00

My goodness, doesn't that week fly! Well, I made it! Very busy, very stressful, but I got through it, plus managed to not deviate from last week's meal planner. I think this is a first.

Not only that, but I also managed to lose the 3lb's I'd put on while away on holiday. Very pleased with myself. And now because I have joined a gym, I am planning on a steady 1 to 2 pound loss each week (notice the positive language!?)

We all plan and join this meme for different reasons, mine is to lose weight with Slimming World and use my blog like I would if I went to classes (I use the online subscription which means I have no excuse to miss anything!) It also means I keep organised all thanks to At Home With Mrs M. Go over and take a look for other reasons to plan, and why not add a comments with your favourite meals?

So onto this week and my planned 1lb loss, in no particular order:

Breaded fish, slimming world chips and mushy peas (about 7 Syns)
Chickpea and roasted red pepper pilaf (2.5 Syns)
Slow cooker beef & tomato with vegetable couscous (2 Syns)
Meatballs, spaghetti and green salad (Syn free)
Stuffed red pepper and salad (2 Syns)
Steak and baked potato (Syn free)
Beans on toast (Syn free if the bread is your HE) (Its my daughter's University Graduation ceremony, so I won't be cooking much!)

The stuffed peppers were inspired by a post from Reluctant Housedad meme, Recipe Shed, which I have adapted to be Slimming World friendly. Am really looking forward to it!

Well that is my week, check back and see if I get my pound loss!

Recipe Shed - Vegetarian

2011-09-15T08:33:00.001+01:00

I missed @reluctanthousedad Recipe Shed theme last week because I was actually *gasp* away on holiday! (Doesn't happen very often in our house, staycations are our bag!) Am pleased to be able to join in with the theme of Vegetarian.

I've got a brilliant Slimming World recipe, which although meat free (I live with two males who feel they have not been fed unless their protein comes in a big juicy slab!) goes down well in our house. You can view the original post here but I'm pleased to share.......

Chickpea and Roasted Red Pepper Pilaf

This is a one pot dish, which takes about 20 minutes to complete plus 15 minutes standing time. It's filling, cheap and flavoursome!

Serves 4
Each serving is
2.5 Syns on Extra Easy or Green
16 Syns on Original

Ingredients
Low calorie cooking spray
1 red onion, peeled and finely chopped
1 garlic glove, peeled and crushed
1 tsp ground cumin
1 tsp ground cinnamon
175g dried fine bulgar wheat
350ml vegetable stock
200g bottled roasted red peppers, drained and roughly chopped (I actually cooked my own up instead)
400g can chickpeas, drained
25g pack of dill, finely chopped
28g pack of flat-leaf parsley, finely chopped
2 tbsp finely chopped mint (this for me is what made the meal)
110g reduced fat feta cheese, roughly chopped or crumbled
salt and black pepper

Instructions
Spray a heavy-based saucepan with low calorie cooking spray and add the onion, garlic, ground cumin, ground cinnamon and bulgar wheat. Place over a medium heat and cook, stirring, for 1-2 minutes to lightly toast the grains.

Pour the stock into the saucepan, stir well, then bring to the boil. Cover and reduce the heat and cook on a gentle simmer for 6-8 minutes or until the liquid is absorbed.

Remove from the heat and add the red peppers and chickpeas, without stirring them in (don't know why, I just do as I'm told!) cover and allow to stand for 15 minutes

Just before serving remove the lid and fluff up the grains with a fork, mixing in the red peppers and chickpeas. Carefully fold in the herbs (fresh ones are best for this recipe) and scatter over the feta cheese.

Season to taste and serve hot, warm or cold (I found it was surprisingly hot at this stage, enough for me to not have to zap it)

You can swap the bulgar wheat for couscous or replace the chickpeas with canned mixed beans.

Its brilliant! Very easy and cheap! Now get your bum over to Chronicles of a Reluctant Housedad for other recipe's (but also check out his blog! Its brilliant!)

Meal Planning Monday 12th September

2011-09-12T21:38:00.001+01:00

Whoops, bit late today, but better late than never! I do enjoy linking up with At Home With Mrs M because it keeps my Slimming World eating plan on track

I was on holiday last week and although I didn't stay totally on plan, I did keep to the principles and managed to put on just 3lb. This is amazing considering I was drinking brandy and babycham and eating chocolate most evenings!!!

But onto this week's meals. I have gone back to basics and nothing fancy, just good plain, easy to cook food. It would be very easy to stay off plan after being away, so I want to keep things as simple as possible to give myself the best chance to lose the weight I've put on.

Breaded fish, slimming world chips and mushy peas (7 syns for the frozen fish)
Beef cannelloni (2 syns if use cheese as HE)
Pasta Bolognese (syn free)
Cheesy, bacon pasta and green salad (Syn free if you use cheese as HE)
Hot dogs and spicy wedges (3 syns)
Homemade fish cakes and slimming world chips
Chilli con carne and rice (syn free)

Looking at the syn values of this plan, the pre packaged meal has the most! I object to using my syns when there are so many free foods on the extra easy plan you can cook with and using the syns for nicer stuff like chocolate or a creamy dessert!

Wish me luck with getting back on track! Check back next week and see how I got on!

Meal Planning Monday w/c 5th September

2011-09-05T21:05:00.001+01:00

I'm doing something very alien to me......I'm not planning this week! Eeeek!

There is a very good reason for it, two days working away in Manchester (eating room service) back in my office for a day, then away for a long girlie weekend with my Mum and daughter! Yay!

It's self catering and I will shop for it on the way down to the cottage, but I'm taking my trusty slow cooker so worries for evening meals or reasons to cheat! Plan to have a large Slimming World friendly cooked breakfast and then eat lunch out.

But the thing is what do I do for MrC and James who are home alone? They eat what is put in front of them but cooking for themselves? Its a bit hit and miss

I suggested a couple of meals they could cook (mainly to use a 400g pack of mince in the fridge)

Cottage Pie
Bolognaise
Sausage casserole

But what about the rest of the week? I'm a good mum and wife so I have bought lots of stuff for them which is male cooking friendly or grab and go

Bread (lots)
Cereal (also lots)
Milk (shed loads)
Oven chips
Fish in breadcrumbs
Fish fingers (thinking sandwiches?)
Peanut butter
Jam
Chocolate spread

Plenty to keep them going I think!

Note: At the time of going to press, I've had a text to say James (who is 18 by the way!) attempted the sausage casserole and nearly set fire to the kitchen! What have I done!

But get yourself over to At Home with Mrs M for some better inspirational meal planners by checking out the linky!

School Reunion, the day after the night before

2011-09-04T11:36:00.001+01:00

It's the morning after the school reunion and I'm feeling very smug for not drinking! Not sure everyone else will feel like that! There were more than a few drinks consumed, a lot I'm sure were to settle nerves.

I can only speak for myself, however I had a brilliant night! It was 'interesting' trying to work out who everyone was again, 25 years is a long time! Some people hadn't changed a bit and were instantly recognisable. For some it was when they started to speak and their names fell into place. Sounds, like smells are a strong memory trigger. For others I had to ask and then the memories came flooding back!

Apparently I haven't changed at all! (I think they were being kind because I am certainly a lot fatter!)

The chaps were harder to recognise! The boys had either grown taller, ummmm....larger, or lost hair! The girls have an easier time of holding back the ravages of time for a little bit longer; we have the benefit of hair dye, make up and pull in pants!

It was a happy night, full of laughs and catching up. Plenty of gossip! 'Do you remember so and so? Well, they only went and .........!!!' And 'do you remember.....?' and 'what about the time when .......?' For some reason shagging and smoking came up a lot !!!???
The memorable conversation for me was:-

Friend - 'Do you remember when we went fishing with so and so? Why did we go?'
Me - 'Because we wanted to get off with them! Trouble was we didn't realise fishing actually meant fishing!!!'

That's what you get when you merge an all girls school with an all boys school, hormones were raging!

I discovered a couple of things last night. I was a person most expected to excel and go to university! Failed on that account then!

Secondly (and this is a weird one!) my sixteenth birthday party was amazing! I remember everyone thanking me on the Monday morning, but it came out last night there was a lot of booze and aforementioned shagging going on! This was why it was so amazing! Didn't realise that until last night! How naive was I?

Everyone's lives are different and varied. Some had children, some didn't. Some had left Plymouth and even the county to live. People had survived there own personal tragedies and experiences and had mostly become stronger because of it. What I saw was a group of people who were survivors. Some people had had harder lives than most and I felt there were maybe some regrets and sadness. But that is what happens in the real world.

I can honestly say I didn't hear any bragging or grand standing, it was a great evening catching up with old (very old!) friends. In fact it felt like only yesterday when we hanging out together, not 25 years.

Am hoping it isn't another 25 years before we get to do it again! In fact I am sure some of us will be meeting up again very soon! I think a visit to the gig of a certain someone may be in order....and you know who you are!

Silent Sunday

2011-09-04T10:38:00.000+01:00

School Reunion

2011-09-03T11:20:00.000+01:00

Tonight is my high school reunion, 25 years since we all left school after the 5th year (none of this year 11 for us!) and 'O' levels or GCSE's

A lot of people I won't have seen since then either. I'm just not good at keeping in touch. It's not that I don't want to, I like to think I'm a sociable person, but life takes over and there are never enough hours in the day!

But Facebook is brilliant for keeping in touch even though its just at that 'top' layer. In fact its been through Facebook this whole party has been organised. I'm looking forward to it, it feels as though the last year (which is how long its taken to arrange) has flown by! I'm scared, but am sure everyone else will be feeling a little bit nervous too!

Some people have registered surprise when I've told them I'm going

'Oh no! They are full of people comparing who's got the biggest car, biggest house, earns the most money or which kids are at the best university's'

Don't get me wrong, I'm sure there will be a bit of that.

But I'm hoping it will be a celebration, a get together of people who spent at least five years growing up together and see where we all ended up. For me it isn't about who earns the most money, or has the biggest car. It's about getting to know these new and wonderful people, it's about understand where their journey has taken them. It's learning about events which have made them who they are today.

It's a celebration of no matter what life has thrown at us, we are still here. And we are who we are because of, or in some cases in spite of, those experiences.

So bring it on! Let the stories and new found friendships begin!

Reasons to be cheerful - Birthday week!

2011-09-02T09:09:00.000+01:00

I missed last weeks, which I was gutted about, but sometimes life gets in the way and other things take priority. Promise I will make up for it on this post, because I've had a great week!

It's my birthday! What can I say? I love being looked after and now the kids are grown up they really do. It's great to have day where it's all about me! Don't know what my pressie is, but am looking forward to a lot of birthday cake...because I'm worth it!

I've joined a gym! It is a huge occasion for me. I said I would start at a gym when I reached a particular weight, but this week, it felt right and so I joined. No thinking about, no excuses. I wrote 'What have I done' and I meant it when I said the mind is powerful;it can stop you from doing things, but it can also encourage you.

Another post I wrote last week was 'Happy' It does what it says on the tin, I was happy when I wrote, happy with the results and still feel that way now!

Saturday I have a special event to go to, my school reunion! Some of these people I haven't seen for 25 years! I am so excited. It will be great to catch up and delve into other people's lives, see where their journey has taken them. I just hope I can put faces to names (and I am rubbish at it at the best of times let alone after a 25 year absence!) We've got people from all over the country coming and even as far afield as Australia!

So that's my week, and roll on the next one!

Michelle has been handing the reins over to other people to host each week, its Kate's turn from 'How to Laugh in the Face of it All' Go over and take a look!